I think I got diagnosed with aspergers yesterday. I had a reeeeealy long meeting with a clinical psychologist at uni and at the end she started saying lots of conflicting stuff about AS diagnoses which I can't really remember because I got distracted by a yellow van outside the window and then talking about the next step and setting up learning support plans. At no point did she say definitively that I did have AS or that I did not have AS so I'm still not sure. Anyway, I'm here.
I also have four kids, one who has a diagnosis of AS, another who is being assessed for AS and who has DCD, a third we have concerns about and our fourth who so far seems ok.
I'm feeling a bit ambivalent about all this stuff. You know on the one hand it would explain a lot but then nothing changes I'm (we're) just like this forever and on the other hand I just want to be normal, before I could keep thinking that I just wasn't in the right job, didn't have the right qualifications, lived in the wrong area, was just not making enough of an effort and if I just tired a bit harder, moved to the right area, got the right job, etc then everything would click into place and it would all be allright. I mean I'm pushing 40 now so maybe I couldn't have held on to that delusion any longer anyway but I had it, it was mine and now I can't pretend it's all going to be ok if the right things happen in just the right way.
Anyway hello, I'm really just trying to make sense of things right now and I'm hoping this is a good place to start.
23 Mar 2016, 7:30 am
