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asgoodasme
Tufted Titmouse

Joined: 28 Jan 2016
Gender: Female
Posts: 35

19 Feb 2016, 7:57 pm

Hi.
Not diagnosed. I have wondered if I was on the spectrum for several years now. My therapist also suggested I may be on it before I ever mentioned my thoughts about it to him. Saw a psychologist for learning disability and mental health testing. I didn't have any autism spectrum specific tests done. He took one look at me and said, "You're not autistic." I was not impressed with that diagnostic technique.

Things I have in common with it:
Taking things literally. Not catching on to jokes some of the time.
Overwhelmed quickly by social interaction. (could just be an introvert thing)
Constantly having to script, because otherwise I cannot think of the words I need on the spot.
My brain shutting down, staring off into space. This could be disassociating, but it feels much different then other disassociative episodes that I get.
Overwhelmed with verbal direction.
Inability to decipher what people are saying when there is background noise.
Overwhelmed with background noise that isn't "white" noise, particularly if there are a lot of voices.
I feel awkward sharing "my day" with someone. Unless its particular to a topic, I am not apt to talk about it.
Haphephobia. Sometimes to the point where any touch gives me panic, and/or inappropriately angry outburst.
Sensitive to fabrics. I seem to only be able to tolerate cotton or rayon. Not much else.
Soothed by white noise, dark rooms, swinging on a swing and someone rubbing my ears. (only place I like to be touched usually, and only by someone I know well)

The one thing that I don't think I have much of a problem with, that most Aspies/autistics seem to have across the board:
Lack of ability to recognize people's moods/expressions. Of course, I don't know how much regular NTs pick up, because I don't know what it is like to be anyone else. But I really have doubts that I have this issue, or if I do, its not much. There is a theory that I had to learn these things early on because of my childhood, (BPD mother) as a survival skill. But I am still not convinced. This is really the only big doubt I have in my mind that I am on the spectrum.

Anyhow. Hope its okay I lurk here. I need some ideas for reducing my stress. Thanks for reading! :mrgreen: