I've never been "okay"
Recently getting worse.
Thought before I might have some small form of autism. Mainly because of my inability to communicate with other human beings in person. I want to be able to talk so bad...
Anyways, I asked a basically "prescriber" if she thinks I might have something in the autism spectrum and she said she didn't think so. I've been diagnosed bipolar, depression, skitzo, that I can recall. I've been fighting since I was 15.. or younger. I'm 29 now and I feel like there's a chance I might could finally understand what's going on in my head. I took a few tests and scored a good bit into the "positive" numbers. It's been killing me slowly all my life.
I can't keep a job.
Very hard to find and keep real friends.
Relationships confusing and frustrating me.
(That might be because, for a while, I've been questioning my sexuality)
Anyways I'm making an appointment with someone who might could tell me if this is me or not. I'm a little scared. Part of me is excited hoping I found what's going on so I can get to the next step; making it work.
Just any advice or anything guy/ladies.
Thank you all in advance and have a blessed day.