Did Abuse Play A Part In Your Personality?

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My parents were cold, verbally and physically abusive sometimes, along with being alcoholics. Sometimes I think if they weren't numbed by alcohol and gave me more affection, I would be able to accept others physically touching me (it even made me cringe when my ex girlfriend touched me).

i'm not going to go into detail (it's not that it was anything terribly awful, it's just that i don't want to think about it any further. i've explored the issue extensively and even excessively over the years), but i can say i remember when i was little i thought to myself "i'm going to be better than my parents when i grow up". for better or for worse (probably mostly for worse, but if i can't change it, then i better find something good about it), that thought/mentality never went away, and probably never will. it is a major force in my life

Probably. But I'm not sure what remains of the scared little boy I once was. I spent from age 27 to 37 (roughly) coming to terms with and understanding the many things that happened, which to a very large degree released me from the lasting effects.