Hi.
I've come here because I was thinking if I am alone living quite a difficult life. Let me explain my backstory quickly.
I never know the meaning of filial piety to my mum and stepdad, who are neurotypicals, so half the time I get into trouble with them. It is also likely my addictive behaviour to spending money, gadgets, games and all the dirty little secrets that stokes conflict with the family. Despite countless warnings I refused to listen until they control me so tight. Also, I might probably have to leave their house when I turn 21, so I might probably need a bit of help here.
The reason why I'm saying this is because I don't think before I say, and I used to be some kind of parasite who is good-for-nothing, and taking advantage of others for my own personal gain, and depending on other people for my life.
One day last year, I ended up "disowning" the relationship with my stepdad so he charged me rental and imposed strict rules, until I move out next year. Before that he imposed less strict rules, talked to me and treated me like family, and always used to tease me. He and I almost were like father and son at one point during my high school years. But due to putting my selfish personal interests before the family and not appreciating what he had done for me, conflict seemed inevitable.
On April this year I was admitted to a mental hospital (Institute of Mental Health or IMH) for three days because I attempted to protect my private files from a spot check by my mum (she does this because she is worried about my unhealthy obsessions), and threatening her. My stepdad tried to chase me out of the house, but I violently resisted. It was then I realised I had to follow the rules, and be more respectful as long as I'm living in the house, and also I have to support myself. And now I'd rather make a passive income than to waste my life away obsess over something.
I'm kinda materialistic, I love gadgets, games and 3D cities. I don't have a true passion yet, but I am tech-savvy.
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28 Aug 2016, 9:53 pm
