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Well, should I start at the beginning, or when I began to learn about Aspergers, and even considered I might have it?

2009, a film called Adam.
I did not like the way the character was portrayed, I felt he was too extreme of a portrayal. But I guess it is a film, and he is an actor.
From that time I knew about Aspergers.
Then in 2015, after many failed social situations I began to think there was something wrong with myself.
I questioned some forums, then I made more research into social norms/customs. And gradually identified my failings.
And I came back to Aspergers, but this time I had more insight into myself.
Took the test and scored pretty high (30ish, just on or just under).

When I was 6 and arrived at a different school, they gave me a book to read. It was one that I'd read before, and they presented more books that I had previously read. I told them as such, and that I was not happy. They couldn't find the book that I was on. Assumed due to my poor pronounciation/speaking skills that I did not understand what I was reading. Then I simply screwed around, not even trying to pronounce anything well, and even reading extremely slowly or stupidly (I was bored out of my mind) to the humour of the other children (that's how I killed the boredom "the duck swam in the lake" see what I mean). I became the class clown. Finally at the end of that year we moved, but, at the end I was finally given the book that I'd been on a full year before, I was insensed and told my teachers so. It was a story about a fox, if I recall correctly.

I'm not sure if the teacher gave me this book to read in the library or if I saw others reading it.
Body Language.
I seem to recall seeing something on the subject on television at a similar time also.
To me this was a ridiculous way to act.
"Why not just state how you are feeling?"
Sure sometimes I will use a frown or some other facial expression or body posture to emphasise a point or enhance something I say. But mostly I don't.
If I cross my arms, it doesn't mean I'm cold, unaproachable, only that it feels comfortable to rest them in that fashion, I don't know what else to do with them.

When I was 11 my father wanted me to having hearing tests, despite acing them. As he would talk to me when I was focused on a particular interest, and I was slow to reply.
He had many problems, and I think he could have also possibly had Aspergers, however he had a very traumatic childhood, that messed him up.

When I talked on the phone to a friend, he would harass me saying I had no emotion, that I talked in monotone. And I exclaimed, that if there was something exciting then I'd change my tone of voice accordingly.

I'd been labelled "Inense + Myname" by a bad person in my life.

I've no friends or job prospects.
However, now that I know how people truely are, I'm actually happy to be alone.
Not that I've ever minded being alone

hiya 3xAngry welcome to our club

Welcome! Thanks for sharing your story.

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Hey AngryAngryAngry welcome.

Hello! I was diagnosed with ASD-1 earlier this year after making a self diagnosis a year before. I'm sure you know that aspergers wasn't around when you were a kid so there are lots of adults who are living undiagnosed. I can only speak for myself, but after I did my research on aspergers and asd, growing up and my adolescent years finally made sense. If you think you're on the spectrum, then that's good enough for me because I know you must have damn good reasons for saying so.

Are you really happy to be alone? I can't stand it I always wished I was popular and the cool kid in school. I have amazing friends now, but it hasn't always been that way.

"failed social situations", being bored out of our minds, Body Language (not knowing what to do, or how to read it in others), "focused on a particular interest", "slow to reply", had no emotion, talked in monotone, "intense", having no friends, "now that I know how people truly are, I'm actually happy to be alone".....

Yep, there's people here that can, probably, relate to every single one of those things. You've come to the right place----WELCOME!! I really think you'll get some great information, here!!

Yep. Though a few friends would be okay.
But I've a strategy for managing them. I hate gossips.
A girlfriend would be nice. I've had one before and pleanty of offers - but from the wrong girls (they only wanted one thing).

One of my strategies is to ignore people, then they think I'm cool because I say little (it's how I got my girlfriend before LOL). Any time I try to go after girls I screw it up, so now I will act indifferent.

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