Well, here I go

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Joined: 8 Nov 2016
Age: 32
Gender: Male
Posts: 5

08 Nov 2016, 5:55 pm

Hello humans,

This is my first time joining a forum, and really my first time introducing myself to anyone solely of my own volition. That being said, I have absolutely no idea where to begin...I'm Christian (name not religion), I live in Houston, I'm from Seattle, somedays I wish I could disappear.

I was diagnosed with Aspergers as a child, after Ritalin failed to help with my "ADHD" symptoms. Unfortunately, by this time I had already been accepted into a Gifted and Talented Education program, and had--what I thought--was a normal life. For almost 20 years I have refused to believe that there was anything "wrong" with me. Sadly, it only made things worse: I developed an often debilitating social anxiety, ruined many friendships through what I now know are called meltdowns, and have struggled with constant miscommunications with family and loved ones. Worst of all, I've spent the majority of my life feeling like a broken human.

A month or two ago, my girlfriend got a package in the mail. When she opened it, I was surprised to see a book about Aspergers. I had never mentioned it to her before (it'll be 2 years in December), so I was shocked that she had a book--and quite honestly a little upset. It turned out my mom had told her, and she thought it would be a good idea to learn about it. I'm really glad that she made that decision, because I read the book and it changed my life. Ever since then I have felt less anxious and broken than ever before. Unfortunately, I also feel more alone and scared than ever before--I used to think everyone else was the problem, now I know it's been me the whole time.

I have way too many questions, worries, stories to share to post here. So, for now, this is my introduction. If anyone can point me in direction for coping skills--namely for overwhelm and social awkwardness--that would be great!

Otherwise, HELLLOOO