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I'm not sure if I have a very mild form of Aspergers, but I do know I have an issue with obsessions, controlling emotions, and understanding social interactions and relationships. Being appropriate. I've always felt on the outside looking in, through a glass and simply not understanding how social interactions and relationships work. Maybe it's due to my list of mental disorders. Maybe it's Aspergers. I'm going to have an assessment done. Autism does run on my Dad's side of the fam. I really really just want to understand social interactions and rules so I can pass as normal.

Despite my various struggles I'm a very successful saleswoman and get complimented on my amazing customer service. But when it comes to interpersonal relationships I am a complete failure. I'm really anxious about socializing, I have social anxiety. It took me almost 7 months to start talking to people at work because I was so afraid of people knowing too much about me or that I'd say something I shouldn't. Which happened anyway. Mania doesn't help matters. Anyway. Just saying hello and hoping maybe I can relate to people here. I'm very alone in the world.

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Hey PreciousHedgehog welcome.

Hello, I feel like I can relate to your post. I'm 33 y.o and undiagnosed but I'm sure I've Aspergers syndrome and have thought so for some time due to my personal social experience and general lack of success socially. I work in a customer service role right now and am often told I'm really good on the phone with empathy etc and with the service I give but I'm a pretty anxious and nervous person outside of this and I guess always have been - I'm always wasting energy all day trying to figure out social interactions between people and how I fit in in regards to this, maybe spending too much time analysing and not enough time trying to enjoy myself. This results in some awkward social encounters, especially at work! I do have a team now who I've worked with for a while and I think we get on okay but I do have certain embarrassing 'melt downs' when I get upset and angry after speaking to very difficult customer (aggressive, angry or harrassing) which make me feel really uncomfortable and which make my colleagues raise their eyebrows at each other and distance themselves. I also feel like I don't want to give anything away, I'm very guarded when talking to new people. I think they just find me boring which is preferrable to finding me weird! This makes it hard to find new friends, most friends I had during Uni have all moved away now which is a bit sad as I'm struggling to fill the gaps. Hope you're not feeling too crappy and feel free to post me a reply if you want to