Trying to find someone, or I suppose a forum like this to learn more about ASD and perhaps ask a few questions.
I've been struggling for many years to understand why I do not fit in to typical social structures. I have felt isolated and have been the odd man out my entire life, which I hate with a fiery passion. As a child I bounced through 13 foster homes and child welfare facilities. Over the years many people have indicated that I was odd or called me (infrequently) "Rain Man" when I would speak. Testing in the foster care system at age 12 revealed an IQ of 146. The testing was scheduled to determine why I performed so poorly in academics. However, this was the 1970s and public systems were ill-equipped to identify, much less manage the unique problem they had on their hands.
After an uncomfortable encounter with someone that I don't even know, where they insisted that I display a number of Asperger traits (not the first time this has happened), I decided to do a little research. I took all of the tests found on the "Aspie tests" web site and the Aspie Quiz on another.
Here's what I have found so far:
Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 145 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 64 of 200
You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)
AQ = 42
EQ = 8
FQ = 24
RAADS-R = 199 (language:15, Social: 111, Sensory: 36, Circumscribed interests: 37)
SQ = 119
TFIS = 22
In another test about faces and voices (I thought I was doing great at this one) I received the following results: You scored 52.0% in 15.0 seconds. Faces: 48.0% Voices: 56.0%
The faces and voices results crushed me a little. ok, a lot. I have seemingly misjudged the feelings or intentions of others, which has caused me a great deal of needless heartache and the loss of many friendships over the years. Now I know why.
I am not in distress, but all of this has actually got me a bit upset. I have many feelings about this revelation, but cannot express exactly what it is that is bothering me. I do not feel the sense of relief that so many members here seem to convey. I have always had an affinity for truth and facts. But I am confronted with the fact that the trueness of this truth does not depend on my feelings about it to remain true. I feel in this moment like the truth is accosting me... if that makes any sense at all.
17 Dec 2016, 5:51 pm
