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Hi all,
Was diagnosed with Asperger's five years ago but I spent much of those five years denying the diagnosis, in spite of facts. I have decided to come clean with myself - and hopefully in time to come, to friends, etc. In the language of the KR model I constantly oscillate between Anger, Bargaining, and Depression but I've been going thru an extended stage of Depression these days; perhaps sharing my experiences will get me to Acceptance. I suffer from a catalogue of other illnesses too (self diagnosed but I hear they're comorbid with Asperger's).

Years ago I would have said I loved reading but I feel like nothing interests me these days. I don't mean I'm bored, but that there isn't much to look forward to these days. Sleep is the only thing I remotely enjoy, look forward to because I'm spared the anguish of existence (I don't mean that in the philosophical sense, I mean very literally the suffering of existence) for a bit.

Looking forward to many discussions.

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There always seems to be interesting conversations going on here.

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Hi Pokey,

Welcome to WP!

I'm sorry to hear how badly it's going for you. I promise, being on the spectrum isn't that bad. If nothing else, think of it this way, you're no worse than you ever were, and now that you know the origin of your social/expressiveness/hand writing issues, you now know that all these things can be learned.

Admittedly it sucks a bit that they have to be learned in an academic/muscle memory sort of way instead of the subconscious mirror neurons sort of way that NTs enjoy, but it's still pretty great that it's achievable

Honestly, the comorbities are the real pain in the 3. Depression is the one that actually results in a lot of us finding out about Aspergers in the first place. By its very nature though, it's also one of the hardest to get a handle on.

Do you have access to a psychiatrist? While there is some evidence that Aspies metabolize certain medications differently, affecting their efficacy, if you are having severe depression, medication might be the best option. Short of that, anecdotally, I've heard amazing success stories from fellow Aspies who've used cognitive behavioral therapy.

In any case, you can find a lot of compatriots in the Bipolar, etc discussion (http://wrongplanet.net/forums/viewforum.php?f=35). I hope that helps