I just posted a rant about why I hated today on a different topic, as my first post. I don't know whether I should've posted here before I did that but I don't really care cause I'm too lazy and stubborn to go back and delete it and I'm already writing this so
I'm Julia, I'm 24 and I was diagnosed 7-8 years ago when I was in high school. I've moved around a lot these past 6 years and I feel like I threw my life away. I don't know what I want to do, I currently work at 2 restaurants, one where I cook and one where I'm a server. Being a waitress is probably what hell would be like, but the tips are really good. I think all the anxiety and stress is making me sick, cause cortisol is toxic.
I'm really depressed and spend most of my time listening to music, playing guitar, collecting guitar pedals, watching pedal reviews, building electronics shittily, learning how to build them the right way, counting calories in food, drinking beer, smoking, drawing, painting, and trying to find someone that likes anagrams as much as I do. I worry about everything and think I'm dying from something new pretty much every other day. I numb out by watching tv and working. I have 3 friends, I live with one and play music with the other 2.