Hey hows it going everybody discovered this wonderful website yesterday when I was bored on my job using my computor on my security job. And I have AS from the years of study I have done on it. From various literature. Anyway I am a 22 year old man from Ohio and I am a Security Officer in the afternoon. My name is Alex Moyer. Wesker is my user name. He is a character in the Resident Evil games that is in my avatar. He is the main bad guy in those. Anyway I have struggled all my life with intense shyness and having a hard time paying attention to things for a real long time like when I was in school for example. I also have obsessions for things two. Another trait. I have trouble looking people in the eye when I am in public like shopping in a mall or something. But I have no trouble with communication when I know someone well. I can read expressions most of the time but I cannot read eyes. I have trouble with understanding sarcasm. But I use it too to be funny. I just have trouble picking it up when it is used on me. Like a boss yelling "Hey Alex what are you doing?!" and me jumping and always thinking they are being serious. I have a stem too. All my life I have rocked back and fourth in my chair and most of the time I don't realize I am doing it. I have a hard time approaching girls as far as asking them out. Most of the girls I have dated I have met online through Myspace or Yahoo Personals. I even dated a girl who was in criminal justice with me and also wanted to be a police officer and we dated and I loved her alot and she loved me and I told her about my AS and she said she loved me anyway and a month later we broke up and she told me I wasn't outgoing enough. Despite me being very affectionate and showing lots of love and always kissing and holding her and such. Which was BS. Why would she care as long as I am comfortable and acting normal around her. I guess that is one thing that makes me different from some people with AS is I have no problem with empathy and being romantic with girls and getting along with everybody I meet. But as far as touching I don't like being touched much at all. I feel smothered. But I love to cuddle and hold my girlfriends close to me and laydown and such and hold hands. It is just different when it is not with a girl I am in love with. Then if it is another person I don't want to be touched. As far as obsession I have always had extreme interests in some things. Things I am really really into are Transformers (been into the toys, comics and orginal series since I was 4) guns and knives (love to collect guns knives), Jason of the Friday The 13th films (been a fan of the movies since I was 7 even met the Jason actors), I love girls, I am a hopeless romantic, and I am really into Military and Law Enforcement things. I almost went into the Marine Corps like my Dad but when this war in Iraq started I changed my mind. Why should I die for Bush, and I went through the Police Academy and made it all the way through but failed the mile and a half run Ohio now requires the cadets to do by only 10 seconds. Which I was completely devestated by and thought about suicide at the time it happened. Since that was my obsession as a kid was to be a police officer. Oh well. Win some loose some. And unlike alot of people with AS I have no hesitation to fight back if people are picking on me. Verbally or physically which I am an ex black belt and have a pitbull determination to pound the piss out of someone if I have to. Anyway getting back to my problems. I always struggled to pay attention and my mind always wandered. Not much anymore but Elementary school was really hard. And as far as shyness high school was hell. I could not eat in the lunch room. I was paranoid of it. I even broke down and cried once beging my teach to let me eat in her classroom. And as a defense mechanism I was always wairing in the winter and fall a black trench coat with black gloves and sunglasses (just like the ones Arnold war in the first Terminator) and sometimes camo pants and combat boots to top it off. I always had a chilly demeanor. It was to keep people away who might want to mess with me. Unfortunitly I got labeled then by some as one of those guys from Columbine by my appearance. But I didn't care. If anything I would have been the hero in that case that attacks the attacker and kills him instead. If that would have happened in my school. I know I rambled alot. Just thought I would introduce myself.
"You have no idea how much I hate you. You destroyed my plans. So now I sold my soul to a new organization. Now die." Wesker Resident Evil
03 Jun 2007, 6:13 pm
Hope you have a good timing posting here, amico. 
