Read my life story here and tell if I'm aspie. Please.

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Hi everyone. I'm from Australia. Basically from India. Here for education. I always knew there is something wrong with my brain. I felt I lack many skills and I blame myself for that. Me and my sister are born to autistic mother and neurotypical dad. Dad left mom after knowing that she is low functioning. Mom is looked after by my moms parents. As a child I was always silent.always head down.dad came from hardworkin background so his aim was to earn money .my grand parents loved me to the extreme unconditionally.dad never expressed step mom didn't either. Step mom was young and naive so she treated us badly.
I'm scared of both my mom and dad. But I had selective mutism I guess. I asked anything and everything to my step-mom. She gave us but my dad use to earn. He gave us all like education food and everything but never expressed love.. As we were growing up he met with an accident. Everyone liked my dad he was good at heart. My step mom also changed her attitude growing up and loved both my sister and me and my step brother.
I was always shy. Was close with friends in school. Afraid of teachers. Especially men. As a child I was molested by a guy until then I had feelings for women.. I enjoyed it. Sexual feelings started at very early age for me. I studied good. My dad used to beat me if I didn't get good grades so I developed hatred and fear.. I used to speak only with friends always head down and avoided as much eye contact as I can growing up with every one.
In teen age got few friends introduced me to drinking.. I stared binge drinking.. Used to drink until my heart burned.. Next day I used to regret. Then decided it's not good.. In my 21 St year decided to do something.. Started learning English basic grammar.. Now I'm doing well in English language.. I ran and ate healthy since then much of the time. In my tech I had so much adhd. Hyper active. Can't concentrate for a second. Never studied passed all exams by copying. After btech realised to change my life. I'm here in Australia finished masters. I self medicated for adhd since then I'm performing well.. My confidence improved far better.. And I stick to routines it's. Been three years I'm working in a company I hardly know anyone. Just for one guy. I smile but not talk approach by myself. I'm addicted to self help it's helping me a bit. I'm always late to work if I don't do my routines like my breakfast I feel like I can't be productive.. So I'm late. But I can focus on tasks . I do better if some one appreciates me. I want to be alone. Even wen my friends are approaching me to hangout I avoid. I like being alone. Please help me if I have asperges.

Welcome to the forums!

Unfortunately I, and I assume most people here, can't diagnose you via the Internet alone, in addition to the fact that most of us probably are not professionally trained to do so, though some may be.

Ultimately it would be best if you can get evaluated in person by a professional rather than through the Internet alone, as there are plenty of things about you that can't be conveyed through the Internet alone. In either event I hope you get the answers you are looking for!

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