I've been putting off joining this forum for months mainly because I always didn't feel like it right now for reasons unknown (I have problems with that a lot, is that an Aspie thing?) and also because I'm so mildly autistic I feel like I only just qualify to be here. I don't suppose anyone who's met me in the past few years would guess that I'm not NT. I'm not your stereotypical aspie. I don't really see myself as geeky, I love parties and nights out and getting drunk, I don't have any sensory issues and I don't think I'm missing social cues (would I know?). But I've always been stressed outside of my house and I feel like I'm wearing a mask the whole time. I have major problems doing things when I don't feel like it and I can't make decisions to save my life. I spend half of my life either thinking or daydreaming and sometimes when I start doing something, if I have to stop, I find I've got so obsessed with that thing I can't concentrate on anything else. I assume these things are because I'm an aspie.
I was diagnosed just before I started school (I have no recollection of this) but only found out a few months ago (I was considered too mild to need therapy). I feel like it explains everything I didn't understand about myself though. I always felt like there was something wrong with me, the other kids at school thought I was weird, I struggled with things other people breezed through, I just couldn't work out what it was and it was making me really unhappy. When I found out, I felt like someone had turned on the light.
I keep Googling things that lead me to this forum so I thought I might as well sign up and join in. So hi
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