So here I am, Scandinavian 45yo.
Never thought about myself as an autist or asperger’s, but in my 40ties I’m having a harder time complying with norms.
I have always known that I was somehow different, I have a clear INTP personality profile with an extreme Introvert component.
Never had any real friends except for my wife, but can’t really explain her what’s inside my head. She is the opposite of me, I think she is sometimes frustrated with my inability to socialise and my sometime offensive responses to people, we have been together/married for 20 years and going strong.
Don’t know how to socialise outside close family and work colleagues, not even with my wife’s friends I have known for 20 years. Does show up to parties when invited, perhaps because the social norms says so, but wants to leave again as soon as I get there. I do now rejects company related parties with large crowds like summer parties, xmas parties, etc. I simply don’t know what to do at the parties especially if there is loud music of lots of chatter. If at a dinner table where there are multiple conversations at once, I don’t know which to follow try to follow them all and get lost and eventually zones out and just want to leave.
Working in IT and I think I appear normal(ish), do have good work/colleagues friends at work, but do often get quite exhausted after a working week.
Geeky and like science very much, into computers since I was 10. Now into computers, programming, photo, electronics, mechanics (preferably in combination )
Like challenging projects but tend to get bored after a while. An example: build my own airplane got it certified and registered got a pilot’s license and flew the plane before I was 30, flew it less than 5 times lost interest and sold it. Haven’t flown since, but it was a good challenging project.
In my 40ties I have become more sensitive to sudden sounds and loud poor quality music e.g. a mobile phone playing music. Also I tend to loses my temper more often now.
I have 2 kids, both are personality wise somewhat special.
A girl 11yo, very intelligent, best performing student at her year at school, but still don’t feel good enough. No friends. Hyper sensitive, emotions/feelings, touch (clothing) and sound.
A boy 8yo, he has dyspraxia affecting speech and motor skills, he was one of the first in he’s class to learn to read, I expect this is a benefit of having 2 years of special kindergarten speech training before starting in school, the training often symbolises a sound with a letter. He has challenges with math, he simply doesn’t get it. He seems socially happy but tend to be the clown in the group.
With my kids challenges I started googling, suddenly I was now googling my own challenges.
Took the AQ and EQ tests online recently, fell well into the Asperger’s range. Not sure what to do with that info, I am who I am.
But also feel kind of guilty as my kids may have inherited their challenges from me.
Here to learn and get inspired from you guys.
02 Jan 2018, 8:21 am
