Hello everyone. I wanted to introduce myself.
My name is Jakub and I'm 38 male from Poland. I have been diagnosed wit Aspergers about three months ago. I always felt like I don't belong to the same species as everyone around me and had no clue why. I had no, I guess "ability" (???) to seek help, until I learned about existence of Aspergers. I always tend to ask questions only if at least I suspect the answer. With something that fitted me I finally went to psychiatrist for the first time in my life. Turns out that apart from Aspergers I have been depressed for most of my life and also I express signs of Adult Child of Alcoholic syndrome.
I've started therapy and medication and I'm at this point in life starting to discover and redefine myself. At this point I am feeling lost and confused but most of all cheated out of all this time that has already passed. After disclosing the diagnosis to my mother she said that she always suspected that I was autistic.
I got here because my therapist suggested that I should try to maybe make some on-line friends. I always treated Internet as more of a source of information then means of social communication. I've always been really neurotic about what I post so it's really hard for me. English is not my first language but I usually have problems expressing my thoughts even in my own language.
I have a full time job (electronics design and software engineering) and live by myself. Been single for the past 15 years - not even a date in all this time. I have only one person that I consider a friend but I think that it is mostly one sided. I have very rare contacts with my family.
A little bit about my beliefs. I am not a racist, homophobic or sexist I just don't like people in general. Maybe I'm a misanthrope or maybe I was rejected too often. I believe in live and let live. Do whatever you want as long as you don't hurt anyone. I am an atheist.
My topics of interest are:
- books - mostly science-fiction, I really like Russian authors of this genre;
- movies and TV series - Sci-fi preferred but will watch mostly everything except horrors;
- cooking - I cook most of my meals (vegan) and really enjoy experimenting;
- mechanical engineering - with a colleague we are renting a small machining shop (lathe and milling machine) for hobby purposes, also I'm finishing my own CNC milling machine;
- 3D printing;
- HI-FI audio - built my own set of speakers and amplifier, finishing my own IEM earphones;
- robotics, electronics;
- photography;
What I would like to achieve in near future:
- learn Russian to be able to read books in the original;
- finally learn to play an instrument - tried violin, piano and guitar but I was trying to learn by myself without a special conviction;
- take a cooking class;
- learn to knit to be able to make my own sweaters;
- learn to draw;
12 Jun 2018, 6:39 am
