Welcome Solarwolf
That describes exactly how I was and still am . I think by joining a forum such as this you're indicating you are at least open to trying to be more social and make friends, and I think that's an important first step (I did so for same reason). Hope you learn some cool things here and meet some people!
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After years of self-imposed exile. I am now making an effort to talk to people. So anyone feel free to PM me on any subject, I would love to try to interact with people more!