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Hey I'm new here. Hope it's not too tiring to read.

I obsess over japanese culture and japanese language. I like books and video games and other things. I love rabbits and cats. I want to be a student for life. I posted a topic about my interests before.

Everyone takes offense over anything these days and I mostly don't care but have to wear a mask anyway, but I'd like honest friends to share interests and such. People keep talking about other people but I don't care much about them. People's appearances all look bland to me. Like, someone that would tell me "try this book or game", and we give impressions and such would be everything I ask for. I don't get social games and I'm bad at it as you can get so I always think I'm inadequate but I also don't feel like I want or could fit in. I'm mostly quiet because I have no idea what I should say to be normal and people affairs are boring. People keep talking small talk that makes me uncomfortable and it just tires me. I don't get why the drama and I prefer avoiding it. I'm getting more and more disappointed with people. People automatically think I'm ret*d because of my childish looks or shyness or something I don't notice unless they know I'm a college student, but I'm not. I have to fake smiles all the time and looking at their boring face. Most people speak too loudly and fast. It badly hurts my feelings.

I like how Omokage sounds and the meaning, vestige. But somehow the vivid taste and texture of eggs comes when I read that word. I don't get it.

I was diagnosed with Asperger's when I was a kid, I don't remember exactly when, and I have some degree of social anxiety. I have bug phobia. By the way its called Entomophobia.

When I was a kid I played games with my cool big bro but now I do things alone and I wanted someone like big bro in my life that gives me motivation big bro now works. My motivation to live is learning new things and watching the next episode next week and so on. People come and go and I just can't make a friend and it's even harder because I can't trust anyone, not even my family. You get it.

I was bullied my life and it scarred me badly. I was bullied because I can't relate to anyone and I'm taken advantage easily, also have some sensory issues. Fellow students just wouldn't let me stay alone and hurt me physically and humiliated me. I can't trust people easily and unwanted thoughts keep coming to my mind. I'm scared of people bullying me again so I'm overly nice and avoid people. Bullies made so much fun of my interests that now I fear talking about them in public although I'd like some like-minded friends.

My parents make fun of my interests and they keep being helicopter parents and I can't have any privacy. They show physical affection but won't try to understand me and they still think I'm as socially stupid as when I was a kid and indirectly make demeaning comments that hurt me. They don't care about my dreams. They want me to be even more trapped and fear that I will leave them. I wanted to live alone in my house but I've got no money and I want to study for life, it's such a conflict. But the worst is that I'm too nice and fear confronting them. I feel like I'm trapped.

There was a lot of negativity up there. The good things is that I'm mostly a kind person and a dreamer. People say I'm too nice. I wished people would be nicer to each other. I'm a good student when it interests me. I never do littering and have good manners. I'm addicted to constant self improvement. I care a lot about animals and want to do a good cause. I'm a good daughter to my parents. I'm oblivious to selfishness and claiming people and such. I don't have any special talent but I'd say I'm fairly good at learning languages and doing research. I don't get why people curse all the time. I take good care of my health. I respect people's opinions and hardly criticise anyone since I know my faults and prefer harmony over conflict. I can speak two languages. I have a good memory. When I try I can come with some good ideas but people just say I'm over thinking stuff. I can read and write some japanese. I help other college students passing because I have lightning fast writing speed and make good studying material and everyone says I'm such a cool person but aside from thanks I get no friends. I don't care about people's appearances and I'm in for their inner side and sharing of ideas. Sometimes I explain things to other students and they say I explain things well and they wished they could be as smart as me but I'm not too smart, I guess it's just because I study most of the time since it's so interesting.

I have problems writing introductions because I either write too little or too much and I dislike in between. When I start writing, I keep putting details and details and so on. I'm an irreparable perfectionist. But I'll cut it short and I'll keep it simple. Hope it's okay.

By the way, sorry for the English grammar mistakes.

Have a good day.

Hope I have a good stay here.

Welcome Omokage!

Yeah, gossiping is pretty horrible. I always just outright tell them to stop it.


That's horrible

I'm sorry you get treated like this.


Sorry to read that. Having nobody you can really trust is hard. Know how it feels.


The bullying angers me greatly. Have been bullied myself, and it has an extremely bad effect on your self-esteem. The rest also sounds very familiar, finding it hard trusting people, avoiding people, compulsive thoughts (depression?).





You are sweet and humble, I like that.


It was a pleasure reading this. You did great.


You're so cute.


Have a wonderful day Omokage

Feel welcome, enjoy the forum, and I hope you will make some good friends.

I LOVE your avatar

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Sounds like several similarities that I had when growing up with callous parents and all.
Anyway...　ようこそう！　I hereby also now randomly adopt thee as my 妹ちゃんdes'. よろしくね！

Current アニメ that I have been following:
⁂　ブラック・クローバー
⁂　オーバーロードⅢ

Used to watch many more but just don't have nearly as much free time these days due to excessive paper-work.
Speaking of which I think I'd better get back to it for now. じゃあまたね。

Welcome. In some ways we might be similar. I am still in my pleasing 4 stage of child development. This is despite the fact that I will soon turn 70.

There may be a job that you might fit into. One of the guys at work had a brother and his brother worked as a tutor in Japan. In Japan learning English is a critical skill. Most times the English teachers in Japan are rarely able to speak good English. Therefore foreigners who speak English are in high demand. You will have to reteach them English almost from scratch because they have been taught wrong.

I believe his brother first began working for a company that provided this service and then after a year or two he transitioned into running his own service. It seemed like the pay was good. You indicated that others felt you were good at tutoring. You can read and write some Japanese. Being a foreigner in Japan will make you different and you will attract many people who will want to meet you.

So if this is something you might be interested in, then research it and learn everything you can about this occupation. Also you might pen pal with someone from Japan. Start building contacts. Learn more Japanese.

Don't we all??

Omokage, Welcome to the site and may you not only find information but, also acquire serenity as well.

Yes. I'm very expressionless, but I manage to do awkward smiles. I look at people's nose and it works .

My face is very childish, and when I say it, it's not an understatement.

I think compared to most women, my face is different, but it's not an unpleasant face. There was a person that said I have a face that seems gentle and they wanted to approach me, but when I start talking I think they think I'm ignoring them lolol. But there were people (more than one, and they said it directly) that my face appears to be of a deficient person, and I kind of get when they say it, but it hurts so much... especially when you're worried in everyday life people might be thinking it when they see you.

I wished I had a child body and an child face forever. I feel like a child all the time. I also don't feel like completely female, so it hurts. I'll explain it better later.




I think I'm starting to become mildly depressed. I analyzed the root of it and it appears so. I get this urge to play online games or play a specific game all day now, daydreams of playing it won't stop coming to my head (just daydreaming it gives me a lot of satisfaction, much more than before). I also become extra sensitive to stimuli. I was able to bear it better before. Although I also have chronic anemia, and that might be becoming anemic again and that might be a factor as well. Actually, I've just a sick person since I was born, I've got no luck whatsoever.

When I become mildly depressed, my motivations and obsessions shift slightly (they become more visual stimuli related). I become less focused in certain areas (such as reading and listening) as well.

My mother was operated and it didn't go well, so she will have to be submitted to operation again... I'm sad. The only good people is family, yet I can't trust them too much either. Father speaks too loudly (unintentionally) and it always startled me, but it's even startling me much more. I'm starting to feel like it would be tempting to be isolated, like escaping a prison of escalating anxiety, I'm hating myself for thinking it even regarding my family. I'm feeling like becoming a sort of a NEET that just takes college degrees but won't partake in society is appealing. My rabbit is getting older and older and I'm dreading the day it will come. Touching her fur or just looking at her charming eyes calms me. Compared to the eyes of other people, her eyes are much more welcoming. I'm also sad because probably I won't be able to do what I've been hard working for 2 years now (main reason)... I see less motivation. I see that establishing a purpose for the future was the reason I overcame depression for these 2 years, when I was definitely depressed, and played games all day long sleeping 4 hours a day and sleeping through class, and it helped me cope with overwhelming life. Now, I only see immediate purposes, that give immediate exceeding motivation.

My stimmming is not very noticeable anymore, compared to when I was a kid, since I learnt to control pretty much a lot of noticeable eccentricities over the years by experience and research (and overuse anxiety as a way to control it), but I know that it becomes worse when I'm low. The first noticeable thing is that I can't forge fake smiles, which I'm already used to survive. I'm having trouble having immediate responses. I'm becoming more apathetic of people aside from my family. I used to become anxious of certain things but now I'm becoming less careful and more obsessive of doing repetitive stress reliving tasks. When I was reading the extremely shocking news, I was looking for clarifications to understand what happened in detail instead of having an overly emotional outrage, unlike my family. The other day, I was laughing about a small thing in the news, because of broken English (mine is no good tbh), and my family got upset because regardless of it I was laughing way too much. I used to relate to people much before one month ago. And now, I even do stupid mistakes while talking, instead of saying "thank you" I just said "please" today. My facial expressions are becoming more numb and my voice is becoming more monotone. It's as if there are 2 modes in my brain, one that is masculine and collected and obsessive, and one that is feminine and sympathetic that desires understanding and is always anxious, and it goes off and on depending on the circumstances, many times a day, depending on stimuli. Now, accessing the sympathetic side is giving me headaches and so on. I can't stand females sometimes with their emotional responses and feeling like I have to fake understanding. When I was a kid, I obsessively tried to appear like a boy, it's just I don't get what I have to do to appear more feminine. I'm sick of being pressured to be more feminine. Or I get it, but it's a pain. Sometimes I just wanted to be agender or a pokémon or something. I'm sick worried about what females might be thinking about my unkempt appearance. I'm sick of worrying of men flirting to me, me first thinking it might be a friendship approach. I just wanted to play games with them and being able to be included. I'm aromantic asexual so I just don't get it. Actually, it's as if when I access an emotion, I'm split between one side, I just don't get it.

When I try to do the controlling eccentricity mechanisms, I'm getting bad headaches. I was managing much better before.

Compared to before, I'm daydreaming almost all day and I can't stop it... In a way it's good because it mostly comprises of preparation for the future and helps me study even when I'm not taking too much attention, and I also daydreamt the exact contents of this post, but those daydreams are being infiltrated by unpleasant experiences of the past I'd rather forget. I wished when I read words like playground and see children on the street I wouldn't be reminded of the past and start becoming overly anxious and starting having an unpleasant heartache. Most of my daydreaming is basic and extremely repetitive, but it helps me cope with dissociating with overwhelming everyday life.

The good thing is that next week I'm going to meet my only newly made friend so it's somewhat better I guess, though I'm also nervous.

I'm anxious. Actually, I'm anxious all the time, but I used to channel it to be able to focus better, and it was a positive one. The anxiety gave me incomparable motivation. Now I'm even anxious of meeting people the next day and feel like collecting art work and seeing images all day long, much more obsessively than before.

I just feel exhausted and more hollow than I used to be. My range of emotions are starting to crumble, I'm becoming more robotic. It's stange, when I'm like this I can't stand people and just want to be left alone. I can't stand drama. Why would you lose time with people if you can't relate with them most of the time, and you feel forced to act a way through the day just so that people won't get offended at you (I'm always quiet because I don't get what I should say)? It tires me so much.

I hope it'll be ok from now on. I'm giving my best no matter what. I hope its just a phase.. Although I know the cause and I know it will hardly change. I'm scared, exhausted, hollow, anxious, unmotivated, and sad. I'm scared of disappointing people as well but I also want to protect myself. I don't hate people, in fact, I like helping people, I know what's socially acceptable and unacceptable, but I just want them at a safe distance.

I guess I'll tell people I'm having a bad case of anemia, which is apparently true as well. But I feel bad about having to lie. Its not as if I hate people, I'm just scared of them. Explaining things is counterproductive. No one will get it, especially my family.

I just feel trapped. I wanted my house and living alone, with my pets, like a hermit, all day. I don't want to work, I just want to go out to learn more college degrees, I always wake up curious to know what I'll learn next time, but people just don't care as much as I and I have to do the difficult work, always. I'm so tired of lazy people, group work is the worst. If I say what I think its best, they might say it's best this way, and I hate conflict, so I just keep it to myself. I'm so bad with coordination so getting a licence is near to impossible (and I have driving phobia as well). I have problems with light and my eyes are constantly hurting when I go outside daytime. I don't care about money, just want some peace of mind and getting along with enthusiastic people like me, or else I just want to be left alone, but I have to fake it all and it just hurts me everyday because I obsess if I'm doing it right or if I'm being weird and people might think I'm ignoring them.

That's why I'm sad right now. I don't see it getting any better. When I do my hobbies that I love, people just make fun of me, including my family. It hurts so much being misunderstood. This is the story of my life and I only see it getting more and more frustrating and depressing.

People are sweet and cruel, but they're like variables, I prefer to not meddle to much with them. I've taken advantage too much times in my life, so now I'm taking a defensive approach. It's not as if I'm cold or uncaring, that's the contrary of it, it's just, I have to protect myself the best I can.

I could talk about the bullying in detail, but it's making me anxious and nauseous. Sorry.



I wanted to live in my house and take care of my animals, but they're not "mine", I feel bad about claiming them. But I know I would give them a pleasant life, so I don't think I should feel selfish. I have a big problem with dogs, when they bark, I start to feel like paniking. Actually, I'm very sensitive with unexpected noises. But I love them, but I fear them, it's very complexed. I like cats and rabbits because they're calm and won't make unexpected loud noises.




Yes I'm humble, but I fear that it's more connected that I have self-esteem problems. I'm probably humble because I have a brother that excells in everything I do, and I'm proud of him, and I know I'm better than no one. He's extremelly intelligent. I've been compared to him by my parents all my life, but I don't feel hard feelings for my brother, he's cool. He's not an Aspie because he can function in society much better than me, but he also has some obsessions, like gaming the same game again and again, though it's a strategy game and I'm not too good with those. I'm much more of a visual person. Actually, I keep having dreams of breathtaking landscapes, I love those! When I was a kid, I could repeat the same episode again and again in my head and having fun while sleeping, it was so much fun. I even remember telling the psychologist about it in detail, but now that I think about it, it was really weird from me. I was always drawing the same things again and again, I guess my parents could tell I was an Aspie and it was not too difficult lolol I'm not too repetitive now though, just when I write and daydreams.

That's probably why I want to help others, I want to save animals, because I feel hollow inside, and seeing them happy makes my day. I'm not even worth getting happiness since when people show me kindness I just feel complexed feelings. Is it normal that when people say compliments and do pleasant things to me I just feel a heartache that is interconnected with happiness, as in, a bittersweat feeling? As in, I don't deserve feeling such feelings. I don't know what's wrong with me. Actually, I compliment people most of the time, even when I feel like saying the truth (something that might be rude), but have a hard time getting compliments, it makes me feel so unconfortable. I know that they're saying it with good intentions, but I just can't feel happy. I just say thanks, to not appear rude, but actually, I feel like a shreaded dead body inside.




Thanks. I do great most of the time, I guess. It's not like I do my best because I feel like I have to, it's automatic, actually. I love writing but I do bad with certain aspects of language, so I'm good at certain types of texts and others I'm hopeless. I have problems explaning actions, as in, explaning stimms, explaning motions of the body, explaning parts of the body, explaning what other's might be feeling (but I think I do manage doing so about myself), and so on. That includes my mother language. I used to cope with my feelings though drawings back there



Thanks.

I'm happy. Actually, is it normal that when I read it from a stranger I feel more happy than when I receive from people I know? I like to read compliments, but listening to them? I just get uncomfortable. I don't get it. I think it's because I feel happy inside, but at the same time, I know that I have to fake an expression in my face that is unnatural, and it's such a pain! Why am I this complicated man.

Sorry if I'm bloody honest, I'm just like that. Hope I'm not being rude. I'm happy, really.

That you used your time to answer to me, that makes my day, really, I've been watching this thread and thinking about what writing obsessively since yesterday. I always have problems writing just what I have to say, I'm always repiting myself... why am I like this. Daydreams of conversations won't stop coming. In fact, I daydream so much it's disrupting. I just can't stop thinking and thinking and thinking, and when I sleep, it feels that my brain didn't recover too much, as in, when I sleep, I feel very vivid, as if I'm half awake. I have trouble sleeping because I can't stop daydreaming as well, and I keep thinking about the next day and what I have to memorise, and what I have to say, preparing my mentality, preparing everything with perfection............... medication helps me, but since I'm getting mildly depressed, it's becoming more stressing. By the way, I take zoloft everyday.

I'm so ashamed of being like myself. I just wanted to be normal, but I can't access what it is to be fully normal, and when I try to do so, I just feel disgusted. So stressfull... and it's even more difficult since I'm female and people have ideas of females that I just can't get it.



Yeah! Thanks.

I'm hoping I can have fun here. I'm always seeing trolls online, but I just don't care about them, whatever. I just ignore them right there. Especially when I'm gaming online, it's the plate of the day



Yay thanks. I just love undertale, it's a fun game.

I really like furry fandom, but it's seriously too lewd, I like the cute part of it.

I sometimes feel like watching cartoons, but fear that I might appear childish and my parents keep making fun of me, so I just read comics on the internet.

I really like this comic called Two Kinds.

If you can, maybe you'd like it, I dunno. I kinda feel bad telling people to try something because I know people aren't as eccentric as me. When I was a kid, I was such a weirdo, and internally I'm the same but I was "tamed" by society, if you get what I men. Man I just don't get adults.

And your avatar is even loveable! Such a cute wolf. Seems like you really like animals. I also love them, but my family doesn't like them too much. I always felt bored when I was a kid and wanted a computer to do tasks, I always felt bored and looked at the walls because I wanted more books and pictures and so I wanted a computer! But now I feel like everything is so accessible with a click, and I have so much choice, so compared to when I was a child, I think I'm less eccentric.



Thanks.



Hey hey hey.

初めまして、Ban-Dodgerのお兄さん。(｀･ω･´)ゞ

Omokageって呼んでいいですよ。

家族じゃなくても、Ban-Dodgerがわたしのことを妹と呼んでくれて本当にうれしいです！なんて不思議な感じですよね～！　ｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗ

わたし、いい妹になるため、頑張りますよ！

他の妹のことも大事にしてね！

よろしくです！

おおぉ、それらは見たことがないアニメですよね。面白そうですよね！(*^▽^*)

If you have good anime recommendations I'll take that



(sorry, my japanese grammar is very basic and it has a bunch of errors back there XD I'm using polite speech because I'm more used to it. I can somewhat communicate in japanese, but I do a lot of mistakes, especially alternating between polite and impolite speech, because I do understand it most of the time, but I'm very bad at writing it, it's like the stage when you can get things but you don't know how to express yourself, but you have to have a clear of understanding of social norms and intimacy between the parties and I'm just a dutz in it!).

Hey, now that I think about it, I also speak in formal language in my mother language most of the time, because I'm bad at discerning if I'm about to get rude or not, even with same-age students. People seem to speak overly verbal expressions and sometimes I become puzzled.

Now I wanna watch it. Actually, I haven't been having time to watch anime because of university study. XD But it's fun, I really love chinese characters. They have such complexity, I just want to compare one to another, and understand the parts of it, and understand their origins, and understand japanese grammar (and when I try to apply it, it is similar to broken English, but I'm trying) ... sorry I'm such a weirdo XDD My family makes fun of me and they always dutch of my obsession with japanese, and also korean and chinese, it makes me so sad... I just wanted them to be supportive. They don't get it. I always respect it that they watch television dramas (yes, my father as well!) all day, and don't say a thing (they're obsessed with it), but they make fun of my hobbies! Seirously, I think because of that I'm depressed and nobody gets how much it pains when they make fun of my hobbies, because they are a crucual part of me. They define me!

They make fun if I buy merchandise, they don't get it. They want me to get married and get kids but I just don't get it either! It's so frustrating having to keep to myself just to keep family harmony going. I could speak much more things, but I already feel bad about saying such negative things about my family, since they were the ones that cared and saw that I was different and provided a safe environment for me to live (but they didn't get that I was being mercilessly bullied... because at that time, I was really bad with language, I think, I just didn't know how to put my feelings in words. Sorry, man I just can't stop thinking about the bullying, I just cry at night because I fear that people think I'm weak and I always have this thing with wanting to appear collected even when I'm sad as f***).

I really like your avatar, it's from what anime? Maybe if I do google image search I'll find it.



4 stage of child development?
I think I get it.

I'm really pleased you took your time to give such good advices, you seem like a kind person.

I don't really want to become a teacher, even if the paying was really good. I just want to do what I feel like doing!


Honestly, I've been telling my family that I want to study for life, and they're supportive of it. I feel kind of selfish, but I know this world is too much for me to handle. I think I can do a job at home if it interests me though. I'm thinking of persuing a PhD or something if that interests me. If nothing interests me, I'll just keep studying whatever interests me. I'm kind of bad at concentrating in things I'm not curious about. And doing the same job over and over again, that sounds like a pain. I want to always learn about new unnusual thinks, I just get bored if it is too normal, like learning languages with different grammars from mine, and looking at the environment and asking what is this tree and animal and such, and like that.

My family always becomes mad if I do so... but it's like I'm always supressing myself.

I seriously don't know what career would be good for me. I just find everything boring if it becomes too demanding and I have to speak with people all day, like I would want something like that. I would run from that. People are too difficult to understand. They're so unpredictable!

When I was looking for a good university degree for me, I just looked what sounded more interesting, not what would be rewarding. But having money is good and all, alright, if I want to have my house and live alone. It's complex really. But I don't want to think too much about it, or I start to get even more depressed and feel like a selfish citizen that I am. Ahhh

Why is the world so boring, aside from a few things. Every since I remember I just wanted to have a family of my choosing and do cool things together. Like my bro. It's as if I feel like I'm lacking emotions everyone feels effortessly. Like I'm living color blind in a world of non-blind people.

And I had a penpal japanese friend, but she was super neurotypical, and I was just so nervous when she came to my country to meet me. Now, she won't talk to me, because I'm just so awkward. I surpressed my emotions and questions and all, and yet I said so much weird things because I have no idea how to make a normal conversation, I couldn't become neurotypical. Why am I like this.

I'm a woman and yet I can't relate to them at all. But I'm seriously scared of men if they're too tall, since I was bullied by them all the time. I was hugged from one unwantingly one year ago and felt like vomiting and running away, like he would beat me, images of it wouldn't stop coming to my head. This flight response won't stop coming in certain areas of the day, it's so difficult even when your dreams are being invaded by images of wars and such. It feels as if there's no escape and I'm trapped.

I'm so stupid and yet I'm not stupid in some areas.



I just read some interesting things here!

It was really interesting, everyone does a good job here.

I made some tests to see if I'm neurotypical and surprisingly I'm not XD I was diagnosed so I was expecting it anyway. Things don't change over the years so easily, though I'm becoming better I guess. Or not. I just don't care anymore. I should accept myself, but at the same time I hate myself for being like this. I'm always annoying others because I'm so dumb. Why I love everyone, even the bullies had their reasons, I don't resent them, I just look back and think it wouldn't happen if I was neurotypical. Everyone is different so I just accept the world as it is, but it is immensely cruel for some people.

Sorry, I didn't edit the text to make it less repetitive and correcting mistakes. I'll do it later. I have no time now. But I was thinking I was being rude if I didn't respond as soon as possible.

I was wondering if I'm the only one that feels what I just wrote before, hope it's understanding lol. I really have a hard time writing in terms that people can relate to, so I always feel lonely. Like I'm the only one that feels this.

Have a good day everyone.

Sorry if I forgot to answer someone, I'm a ditzy sometimes.

Sorry if I was being rude or something, it's unnententional, I mean it.

You're all great, remember that

オモカゲちゃん。そうですね。

私の文法のレベルも知らないですが…No problem. For it does take many hundreds (and often thousands) of hours of study and repetition to achieve consistently correct grammar in a non-native language.

I also forgot to mention a third アニメ that I had been following : 七星のスバル
Oh, and Stein's Gate 0, but these are pretty much the only four that I've allocated time towards watching for now.

Some highly popular animé from before included:
Re:Zero - Life in Another World
Gate: Jieitai Kanochi nite, Kaku Tatakaeri (Two Seasons)

I know I have a list of others somewhere in an Excel-file document but know not necessarily your preferences.

Your mother-language ? Then English is still a «secondary» language for you ?

Well, the way I see it, is that primary interests are not just mere hobbies, but akin to a career-interest. Also, I had become rather famous for a time (on-line; different identity), and having the attention of millions of viewers certainly got me much more «made fun of» or derogatory commenters, but it just comes with the territory, and eventually I just had to ignore it since cut into my time to bother thiking about or responding to any such comments. I had even been aggressively called all sorts of derogatory names by an on-line commenter on a video from not too many weeks ago, but, eventually, I just left him with a web-site link as to the reasonswhy he was harming himself with such «immature» behaviour and left that as my last comment (another commenter joined in, quoted one of my previous comments, and told him that the «debate» was already over, for I had already won).

Some people just like to push a war-mongering agenda I suppose; also, regarding your folk watching the television all the time, what if I told you that there is such a thing as a Thought-Manipulation Patent (see US 6506148 B2 amongst numerous others) that can literally influence people into making fun of others ? (mind-control from television-screens)

Anyway, as an honourable　兄さま, I must necessarily (and do) support your interests !
Also, regarding family who supports you, that is also not a license to be «abusive» about it either !

Alright, let me articulate, with the behaviour of police-officers being an example. This is a day-and-age where, if a police-officer were to actually do something «nice» for somebody, instead of ruining their lives like so many cops do, then the end up in the «news» to be «hailed as a hero» (such as South Carolina's Horry County Police Officer CJ Mullinax ), for simply doing what should in fact be a normal activity. The fact that «society» has become so «conditioned» into accepting the abnormal as-if though it were normal is a testament to how most of the world is simply not right in the head (you know there's something wrong when doing a «good deed» which SHOULD be the ORDINARY NORM in the life of a police-officer, must somehow get all of the attention and praise that it does, as-if though it took «extra-ordinary effort» just to be «kind» to someone; similarly, a family is supposed to care for, protect, and support or encourage their family members, not put them down for any reason).

This Avatar that I currently use was not from any specific animé that I am aware of but chosen because of the bandana. Actually, I used to wear head-bands a lot, but now I am more of a business-suit guy. Wearing French-style beret. Anyway, better not to base your self-worth on what others think of or project towards you, but to simply focus on your own progress of how much you can improve yourself from where you were before (you're not required to share these accomplishments with anybody who refuses to share in your enthusiasm). Sorry for such a delayed response, but it definitely looks like I should be there for my imouto-面影ちゃん. I got some deadlines to try and beat myself so until next time and <hugs> for now.

wish I could stab em for yea in the eye, maybe just beat them with a pipe. Sorry that most people are scum.

Next time contact authorities and if they refuse you can take legal action and sue law enforcement. It is not legal to physically harm anyone, and not legal to provide environments for physical harm against people with mental illness.