Good day everyone.
I am a very personable 63 year old who is definitely different from the crowd. Nothing has been diagnosed, but I scored a 24 on a test yesterday which most people have gone on further testing. At my age, I'll just leave it at that. I find professional relationships and just friends (of which I have very few) work OK for me, but not intimate. Of all the people I have come across in the military, the only ones I ever see now are a retired bunch from the local area who meet for coffee once a month.
I have always been shy of the spotlight, and cannot function when it is on me, with a crowd or even just one. Which is why I am still single. I often wonder what it would be like to be with someone, but nothing ever comes of it. I spent my entire career in the Canadian military. I had no issues when I was on parade, as I was a part of a mass of soldiers marching. But when it came time to call me out to receive an award or medal, and I just fell apart. I was lucky in that the trade I had worked 24/7, so it was mostly a solitary job. No one around most of the time, and just a few during the weekdays.
As I have aged sounds have gotten worse for me. I just bailed out as a volunteer for Hospice due to their training days they hold every so often. Usually held in small venues, the voices of everyone talking drives me around the bend. It all enters my brain as awful noise. The last one I was at, I was about to run out, as I couldn't stand it any longer. At the other end of the scale, when I sit on the toilet, every time i shift a little, the seat quietly rattles against the tank. I had to put velcro dots on to stop that!
My first post here was about driving. I like to drive, as it calms me down. But I much prefer lesser driven highways if possible than the 401 here in southern Ontario.
I am clumsy as an oaf, can't sing, dance, ski, walk a tightrope. None of that.It doesn't help that I was recently diagnosed with spino-cerebellar ataxia. I've had that all my life as well. I figured I had ADD of some sort as it takes a long time to get anything done. Something catches my attention and whatever I was working on is left for another time, like when I remember I was working on something.
I don't know if it is AS or not, but after reading up on it, I see parallels with my life.
It is surprising, that so far I have been able to type all this out in one sitting (oops, had to get up for a bit just now). I'll stop boring everyone, now you can get back to what you were doing!
08 Oct 2018, 9:43 am
