Hello everyone!
Been searching for a place to talk with other ASD peeps. I've been reading some of the posts and figured I'd just break the ice with my "story."
I guess they don't use the term Asperger's in the manual anymore, but in my Neurocognitive testing report the doctor kept referring to Asperger's as a way to describe where he felt I fell on the spectrum. I'd been hiding (or attempting to hide) my true self for well, all my life, I guess. In my heart I knew, I 'stimmed' a lot, mostly in secret. But I'd also do it openly around people I knew/trusted. Or, when no one was looking, at work. Which was actually really fun, because no one knew where the noise was coming from and I could laugh. Anyway...
I didn't want anyone to know and I kept trying to beat the MMPI's. But no matter how smart you are, if you are lying, the 'control' questions will 'out' you. So, this last time I just answered honestly. I got referred for the test because of work. If coworker would come into my space with nonsense, I would just tell them to go way, beat it, scram, whatever. I didn't feel bad about it either. And on very rare occasions, if I felt I had been truly wronged, I would go on a diatribe (melt-down). So, here I am. I've known for sure now for five (5) days.
Like probably most everyone here, my verbal IQ scores were another big indicator. The interesting thing is that despite that, I'm a woman of plain speech and relatively few spoken words, compared to written words. Little empathy; I'm one of the ones who will attempt to console someone by patting their back with the soft end of the broom. I hate touch and proximity, but I have an understanding spouse who works with me.
I'm also ADHD.
Just saying "hi" and I hope to be a better friend here than I am in real life.
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Disagreeing with you doesn't mean I hate you, it just means we disagree.
Neurocognitive exam in May 2019, diagnosed with ASD, Asperger's type in June 2019.