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Hi,

I am excited to know a forum like this exists! I self-diagnosed a year or two ago, and have been kinda busy with life. But now that the dust is settling, I see I have no one in my life who knows the real me (save for maybe my 10 year old), so here I am.

I thought when I discovered I was an official INTP, that explained everything. Then I thought when I qualified for most (but not all) of the diagnostic array of ADHD/Borderline/MPD/etc that THAT explained everything. But now I think I finally understand the issue was there all along-from birth-and that having an autistic brain really does thoroughly explain my quirks and kinks. It only took me 50 years to realize it.

I was a long time member on Type C personality forum if anyone is familiar with it....but I quit that for various reasons a few years back. I miss the outlet only a forum can give me. Vlogging is so fun but generally lends too much exposure for my Shy-Side comfort.

Anyway, basically just saying hi. I hope this place sticks and that I can make some friends.

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Hi! If you ever decide to seek an official diagnosis:

Alas, that might not be easy to find in Montana. The only possibly helpful page I was able to find via some preliminary Google searching was this one. Perhaps some of the organizations listed there might be able to advise you on where to find a therapist who is qualified to do adult ASD diagnosis? Alas, ASD-aware therapists are scarce -- especially for adults.

Anyhow, whether or not you decide to seek an official diagnosis, welcome to WP.

Welcome to Wrong Planet MissMary227

Hello. It is great that yoh can join us.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Thanks Everyone so much for your warm welcome.

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I have been too busy with the holiday week/and work to respond yet. Tonight I was planning this elaborate (for me) plan to go to Bible camp (which I am pretty comfortable with going to--have been there many times before), volunteer in the cafeteria dish pit, and then go to the tabernacle for church/worship services. However, I got triggered and ended up coming home instead. I have been looking forward to this for a while, but when I get triggered, I become completely disheartened, and just want to return home to my safe haven, crawl into my jammies, and find my comfort zone so I can feel better. Of course, I don't tell anyone what happened or that I am leaving...I just sort of skulk off into the distant haze hoping no one notices.

Is it common for aspies to become triggered over relatively insignificant things??? This involved being in a picture which at first I was happy about, but then when I saw how I looked in the picture, it ruined my day. Not only that, but I had no idea I was supposed to wear close-toed shoes into the kitchen area, so I worked about 10 minutes, having fun, then basically was told I had to leave. My fantasies of being a part of this church camp thing went up in smoke just like that. So it was essentially a cascade of events I suppose....

I actually like spontaneity at times, but when plans go awry, my mood totally changes; and I feel downhearted and have a weight in the pit of my stomach. It sounds crazy, but that is how my body reacts to unfortunate events.

Anyone relate? I really think this is directly r/t being on the spectrum.

Thanks for listening.

I can completely relate to the being dissheartened when something small happens and one just decides to head home without disturbing anyone else... I have been known to drive to events and not actually go because something has upset me and I get suddenly downhearted. It maybe normal? I don't know. Sometimes even though I may have spent time to drive to a place, I can't face going in if it looks a bit too crowded, and I drive back home despite having looked forward to the event.
I rarely go to church these days.
Once about an houes drive from here I went to go to a housechurch. On the journey an elderly couple were in front who were driving quite slow. I wanted to get to the event with plenty of time spare so I could relax and find a nice place so I would not be crammed in. While driving, I knew in a couple of miles there was a long straight where I could pass them, as most of the road is all blind curves. When we finally got to the long straight, nothing was coming the other way, so I put on the indicators, but every time I went to pull out (I tried two or three times) the driver moved over to the middle of the road to stop me overtaking. I aas a bit wound up. I followed them and eventually went to the turnoff. I was expected to meet my parents at the event. Well. The elderly couple turned off there in front of me and right into the drive of the housechurch. As it had upset me, I carried on along many lanes and eventually drove all the way back home. Later my parents wanted to know why I was not at the event.
I later got to know the elderly couple. He has passed away and she sometimes calls in here. A nice couple, but her driving... Well. Once had a lift with her and she was tailgating most of the way! She be lost if she didn't drive though, as in this area one can be quite isolated. He was driving the time I had tried to overtake. Never did find out why he drove like that that day.
Sometimes I get so nurvous I can't attend events. About a year ago I had a job arranged and all I had to do was to see the manager the week before I was due to start. I drove up which was about a 40 minutes drive. However, though there was no time limit yhat day to see him, I was so nurvous I could not open the door and get out the car. My Mum was in the car with me as we were planning to go elsewhere later. Well. All I could do was sit in the car and after a while I drove a few miles to a quiet place where I was able to calm down and we had a snack.... About nearly two hours later I was able to drive back to the car park and go in, see the manager and have the job. I am familiar with the work. It wasn't that I had not been employed with the company before as I had on three occasions in different stores, and I also knew some of the staff, and the manager. Is just it hit me that day!
Next week I am starting there again. I am hoping and praying I will be ok. Last time I took the job (Temporary work which is part time) I kept getting partial shutdowns so I was struggling! I really hope I don't get them again. Last time I upset someone as when I came out of a partial shutdown I had hearing issues where I could hear him but make no sense of it as if my mind could not understand? I messed up. Unlike me to mess up like that.

Hi, pleased to meet you.

What part of Montana? I used to live around the Flathead Lake.

I'd like to live in Montana. Especially west of the Continental Divide, the winters aren't so severe as they are in North Dakota.

Missoula's winters are not as severe as those in Great Falls.

I'm in New York City, by the way....

Eastern Montana gets very hot in the summer sometimes. And I've seen Billings pretty hot, too.

Do you take hikes in the mountains a lot?