Hi!
I am quite new on WrongPlanet, and am looking to make friends. I have some significant struggles with ASD, with some self taught skills. I just arrived from the Northwest with little preparation and that shook me quite a bit. There is a stressful, chaotic event in my family with some dysfunction...I have been teaching myself coping skills.
Part of my family, whom is toxic to me, are the ones I live under for now. I am nearly 25 years old. I am striving to teach myself independent living skills, and get help. All calls to police have been not taken seriously as my aunt stepped in and has pretty much ensured that I don't come off as sounding like I know what I'm talking about. I am developing a few toxic habits myself and can't respond appropriately, though I do have high intelligence and have taught myself many skills. I am shy but advocating for myself is a big first step. I need to get resources because I keep getting empty promises, and am finally starting to suspect that there is no intention of support. I have tried multiple attempts at getting myself services in the past but I've been "rescued" by family. They act as if the world is an unsafe place and I know there is hope and resources.
The relative I moved down to is.....tricky. I'm never sure whether to trust her or not. She has family believing lies (or she's just lying to me) at which point, I've taken to the tough task of staying secretive of my communications. My Asperger's was self discovered and self advocated, family always knew but there was never a diagnosis. I've always had quirks.
I apologize if I am becoming pedantic, I am low on resources that are being controlled by family as far as looking for a job, etc. I need to get some resources to get me out of here. I've seen my relative destroy others' lives and I can't help but worry that I won't be believed. My ASD is used to gaslight me a ton and when I start crying from being taunted it's painted to make me look crazy. She is able to use her knowledge to get others thinking I have issues. I am terrified, I studied tons of psychology and I have little privacy, I need coping mechanisms and arizona resources, and a way to get an advocate. I'm looking everywhere for resources. A start. Ideas. I don't want to slander anyone, I just need help. I'm being bold, I won't back down. I have already checked and rechecked, documented, kept track to ensure I'm not going insane. I have people validating me, but no way they can help, though I am thankful for validation.
My speech is rushed and whatnot, I apologize, if she sees me typing she will pry and she's still home. I need a careful plan out and appreciate any advice.
Also, about me, I grew up loving tornadoes, and being a pedantic little talker. Overly honest with no filter.
I have my RITVO scale results and I just took the test again to be accurate. I, again, just moved with my non-legal "guardian" after trying to run away and start life. I'm 25 and a vulnerable adult. I will post upon request as I am unable to post links as a new user. I just need friends, a support system, resources....thank you.
03 Oct 2019, 10:00 am
