...this is yet another intro.
I know some witty things to say, and some jovial ones too. I looked at other posts to see if there was a norm to how these ought to be structured that might offer the most direct path to acceptance, even if I don't like having the desire to seek a path towards acceptance. However, I thought it best to save those approaches for other areas and instead try one that felt more right, even if I'm on the wrong planet.
Introductions come with the usual trepidation. What to say, how to say it. What is too much, what isn't. I've never fully understood the allegiance to first impressions, even as I am sure I cannot fully escape their impact. Too many variables exist to properly encapsulate an entity based on a single interaction. I can't tell what mine will be here and I usually can't in general. I hope it will be good enough; I always do, even as I try to parse what is belonging versus what is fitting in.
I'm in my early 40s and just discovering that I'm an Aspie. There is hesitation at laying claim to that title for self-identity. Am I Aspie enough? What if I am wrong? I read Cynthia Kim's book: Nerdy, Shy, and Socially Inappropriate, and it resonated so profoundly with me that the relief and emotion were palpable. The subsequent journey towards fully understanding is still new. It's what lead me here, for resources, possible connections, and perhaps to be understood, behind the masks worn for social survival. I like things in 3s and multiples thereof, 9s especially. The cadence of one thing, another, and a final one seems to resonate well with most humans. A tangent...
This is exposure, and exposure is difficult. It is a risk that I have found for most of my life, difficult to navigate for the requisite reward. Though it is a risk still undertaken, with caution from my years that brings a little more comfort than in my youth. Perhaps it is just as well that the weight of first impressions has never fully eclipsed the curiosity inherent in new opportunities.
Thank you for reading. I look forward to observing, interacting, and learning within this community.