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My username really explains doesn't it. The latency in our brains.

I've taken precautions to not let anyone know me.

Self diagnosed at 20, male. currently in university. I'm very inattentive. I always lose at whatever video game is played and I feel very stupid because of it.
I've never had a girlfriend and that alone has caused me great distress/depression, never had anyone to understand me. I'm starting to suspect that my family knows what I have, but none of them want to believe it, since mental illness is a taboo in our country.
I'm taking risperdal because I have hand tics (like getting really excited and flapping your hands) and sometimes I space out and start murmuring to myself and inattention (or jumbled thoughts).

My mental health is 0. Knowing this has made me very self conscious because I will probably never be able to get a wife/girlfriend. I had no early childhood intervention. I have depression. .

My mom keeps telling me there's nothing wrong with me. Before When I was taking trintellix for depression, she made me stop it and that caused me to take them all, but she hasn't learned. She keeps saying that I should stop taking this medicine. Like nothing's wrong

Good Morning!
(Or probably lunchtime from your perspective )

Welcome to WP, hope conversing with us helps you feel better in yourself and your life as time goes on.

I found university increasingly hard across the years I was there, have no experience of taking pharmaceuticals for symptoms though.

We’re generally a good natured crowd, debates in the PPR* forum can get a bit boisterous though!

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Hi, welcome! You're actually not the first Lebanese to join here.

Welcome, I can relate to your name but maybe for a slightly different reason. I'm not unintelligent, but my brain often slow and that "latency" where my brain takes time to catch up on what going on around me.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

Yep, I grew up in a repressive (unsupportive) environment. The horrible messages I received for decades: "If you wanted it to be better, it would be, so clearly you don't truly want it." "If there is a problem it's because you called that forth." I parent my children differently: "You are upset or uncomfortable --- (provide comfort)… what is within our control to do here? with what level of effort? what risks and rewards..." "...and if it's outside our control... hugs."

Ironically it was my ASD-like mom that said these things --- she adapted suppression,blame and reclusiveness as a way to survive her abusive childhood --- she's finally coming around a bit now (in her 70s).

I was horribly depressed (suicidal) in my 20s. Thankfully the one thing my mom taught me well was to ask for counseling support and I got it. I used mood stabilizing meds into my 30s. I am happy to report that 20 yrs later, I have embraced life (I still have awful moments, but they are moments). I still struggle with mental health (I was just diagnosed so am making the transition from "me = wrong" to "me = different and wonderful in many ways". Hang in there so you can make that transition...! !! !

I'm sorry your culture is unsupportive and repressive. Any immigrants you can befriend? That's a typical ASD go-to --- finding folks outside (or at the edge) of a culture.