Is Anyone Here 100% Or Close To 100% Autistic?

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Odd question, I don't believe lt has ever been asked before. So here's the deal. I am 100% or at least 99% autistic. What does that mean? It means that I am almost completely devoid of neurotypicality; or more accurately, I almost never use My limbicortex to make decisions. I make almost full use of My neocortex. Naturally, this makes Me human 2.0 & better than everyone else. As great as this seems, in reality, lt is extremely lonely & miserable. There is noone close to or above My level. I am much better than all of My idols, which sort of defeats the purpose of having them. I have no friends, because everyone is just so damned neurotypical that they see Me as another species. Only people who are partially autistic have ever even tried being friends with Me, but because they are so low on the scale, so neurotypical, they always end up abandoning & ignoring Me. There are eight billion people on the planet. Am I really alone on this planet or is there someone near My level somewhere? I know I'm coming off as narcissistic & even insulting to some people here, but I truly am better than everyone else. It's not a contest, lt's a fact (For the time being. I am fully prepared to accept someone as being better lf there exists such a person.). I wouldn't mind finding someone better than Me, but I've never been able to find one. Almost everyone I have ever come across is an awful person. There are a few people who are, were or seemed to be as great, but they are either dead, have been corrupted or are inaccessible.

Examples (in case you still think I'm a narcissist):

Amazing, but now dead: My grandma, almost any non-human animal I've ever met, a few others.
Was or seemed to be amazing, before corruption: Most of My former friends, plus some family.
Seemingly amazing, but distant & hard to get in contact with: My other grandmas, My cousin, My aunt/godmother, one friend, some Reddit friends, some miscellaneous people & the Lord.

There is noone I can truly rely on. The few people I do have I only trust so much. I feel like when the right person comes along, I will fully trust them & have no reason to doubt them. I don't feel this way about these people, for various reasons. I feel like lt's only a matter of time before they are corrupted as well. So is there anyone here over 50% autistic? If you're not sure, ask yourself lf you are rational, kind, intelligent, self-aware & indiscriminate. If you are constantly impressing yourself with how great you are & find that you almost never do anything wrong, then there is a chance that you are a very autistic individual. If you know you can always do better & are constantly striving to IMPROVE, not CHANGE, yourself, then you probably fit the bill. If you treat people as you wish to be treated, lf you believe that your purpose is to help others, lf you never want anyone to have to feel as miserable as you do, lf you sicken yourself with how much of a push-over you are, then chances are that you are a beautiful, amazing person.

But even lf you're not, feel free to reply. I like talking to everyone.

I'm really just looking for friends who won't abandon or abuse Me. Anyone who fits that bill I'd love to be friends with. But lt would be ausome lf there were at least one person on My wavelength.

I was 100% autistic until I was 8. Meaning that I was completely nonverbal and did not respond to others and operated at the level of a 2 year old as far as how much care I needed.

These days I am slightly verbal, but still can not have a conversation. I am still quite withdrawn and don't look at people when they talk to me. I stem extensively. There is much that I can not do on my own. When no one is at home I have to go to adult daycare because I can not look after myself. Except for my reading and writing ability I am borderline intellectually disabled academicly.

So that's what being 99% autistic means to me.

I'd say I'm about 20% autistic maybe. And 75% ADHD. And 99% anxiety. Take away the anxiety and the ADHD, I would probably have been diagnosed with AS in adulthood like other AS females, not in childhood. But the co-morbids to my AS do contribute greatly to my struggles in life.

The percentage idea may be novel though that doesn't make it valid. Meet one AS person, you've met one AS person. If that one AS person is only yourself, the scientific adage that you can't make valid generalisations from a single case applies.

I didn't know anyone replied, I never got a notification.

@EzraS I was nonverbal untill I was 3, so I can relate. I'm having trouble understanding why you cannot hold conversations or make eye contact. Do you mind explaining?

@Joe90 75% ADHD? Wow, what is that like? I'm about 1% ADHD, so that's quite a difference.

@B19 It's not that I haven't met other autists, lt's that they're still very neurotypical, while I am not. I almost never make emotional decisions. Feel free to challenge Me on that. A few people tried, but lt's true. Everyone I meet, no matter how autistic, gets corrupted over time, whereas I do not. I've been saying for over 20 years that I will never change who I am. I am now close to 25 & I am still the exact same person I was then, only improved upon. I know this, because I received a time capsule message from My 2007 self this year & I still think the same way I did then. Everyone always abandons Me, which is a very emotional decision. I never abandon anyone, because I understand the concepts of friendship & commitment. Even people I can't stand, I give the chance to redeem.

Well it's only an estimation.
Yes I'm often like a Springer Spaniel; hyperactive, bouncy and annoying. I also have difficulties sitting still, focusing on projects or interests, watching TV, and being quiet when around people I'm comfortable with. It's like my mind is on fast forward.

OP - You sound manic .

@Joe90 That's a lot like Me actually. I've become much less bouncy & annoying over the years as My misery grew, but I still have the energy. The trouble paying attention is more A.D.D.. People tend to confuse the two. I have both, in pretty even increments. I wonder lf I have more than I think. My doctor said lt's only about 1%, but I was 12 & he's not really a psychologist. I only met one another person with A.D.H.D, but he didn't seem all that energetic. So lt's quite possible I have more of lt than I think I do. The thing is that I think a lot of lt is physical & due to high metabolism.

@Firemonkey I saw that coming.

You wear the mantle of anosognosia well.

@Firemonkey That is quite the conclusion to jump to, based on a very small amount of evidence. The problem with your theory is that, albeit rare, I have had errors of judgement a few times & realized lt. I have noticed that I am substantially more likely to recognize, correct, apologize for & compensate for errors. The problem is that when I say I am better, what neurotypicals actually perceive is that they are inferior. Thus, they get defensive. It's technically true, but I prefer to stay on the more positive side, by saying I am superior. It is not meant as an insult. It is simply a fact. I have yet to see a scrap of evidence to the contrary. Realizing how great I am & revelling in the fact is not an indication of cognitive anosognosia. I am perfectly self aware. It just so happens that I am much more evolved than everyone else that I have yet come across. I don't have anything to be happy about, so I use Myself as a source for joy (not like that). I'm not proud of Myself out of some misguided sense of self-interest. My proudness stems from the fact that I consistently impress Myself, despite My very strict standards. The very few times I have screwed up, I was not proud. Unlike some people I have encounterred who are narcissists, I have to earn My own respect. It is okay to have a lot of self love, as long as you can still empathize with others. I can & do, unlike narcissists. So no, I am not anosognosic.

Not realising you're prone to mania is a sign of anosognosia .

Which is exactly why I'm not anosognosic. Ofcourse I am prone to mania, just significantly less than anyone I have seen. In order for your theory to be true, I would have to be only partially anosognosic. I have yet to see any evidence suggesting even partial anosognosia, however. I am not debating you because of some hidden fear of admission. It is not altogether impossible that I am anosognosic. I am debating you because I have yet to see any evidence to come to that conclusion. The basis of your theory is My unorthodox levels of self-love.

In a neurotypical mind, unorthodox levels of self-love equate to narcissism, which is a somewhat reasonable assumption. However, there is such thing as, 'healthy narcissism', a substantial amount of self-love that does not coincide with a decrease in empathy. My empathy levels are incredibly high, to the point that I empathize with inanimate objects, imaginary concepts and simpler life forms (such as plants). A neurotypical mind also has a tendency to shift burdens in order to relieve stress (although this is an extremely inefficient method). A neurotypical can only accept mediocrity because lt is assumed that everyone shares this same mediocrity. So when someone who is not mediocre comes along, lt upsets this perceived balance & forces the neurotypical to reflect on how inferior they are. As previously stated, they take this as an insult rather than a fact, causing them to get defensive & aggressive. It's essentially, 'If I can't be great, then nobody can.'. Hard as lt is to accept, there will always be someone better.

Evolution sees to lt that there is always a new best. In the next generation, I will likely become obsolete. Mammals will be replaced soon after. We've had our time. In about 250 millennia, animals will also be replaced. I am not botherred by this fact, this is as lt should be. I am part of a progression much larger than Myself. Autists will eventually dominate, though I'm not entirely sure why we haven't yet. For the first time in evolutionary history, we will be able to peacefully overtake our predecessors, as we see no logic in violence. When our time is up, we will be the first to peacefully step aside & let our evolved descendants dominate. Evolution is moving away from violence & hardship. Kind of off-topic, but the point is that I know where I stand. It is everyone else that I worry about, clinging desperately onto a bygone age. But misery is no way to live. I possess self-awareness, I have no doubt about that.

Cognitive anosognosia is all around. I'm just evolutionarily lucky enough to be free of that burden.

OP, you have posted this thread in Social Skills and Making Friends, where it is off topic. As you are new and introducing yourself it has been moved to the introductory thread.

100% autistic surprized me as I someone said that no one is 100% autistic and like wize they said that no one is 0% autistic. I did think that statement was odd because there must be someone at one extreme or the other. Logic says that there will be at least one person at the 0% and the 100% end.

@Mountain Goat The probability is incredibly low. Having one without the other is excessively challenging for survival. Having no use of the neocortex is evolutionarily crippling, as neurotypical domination is being phased out & we live in a world of autistic inventions, which a true neurotypical cannot handle. Likewise, having no use of the limbicortex leads to isolation. We survived the wild by sticking together, so having little ability to socialize properly makes you vulnerable. I do struggle immensely with My severe lack of limbicortical task positive networks. It is near-impossible for Me to make decisions that require emotional reasoning. I also lack the charisma to gain rapport among neurotypicals, so My ability to lead the world to a better future is completely handicapped without some sort of, 'translator', someone who can walk in both worlds, understand My intentions & ease neurotypicals into a better, more wholesome way of thinking. I am very blunt & honest & lack the patience to engage in rituals to gain favor. Reality is a foreign language to NT's.