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Hi! I'm Aaron. I'm from Indonesia. I was born in 1980. I want to share my childhood, or what I remember of it. When I was a kindergarden, I was a crybaby. Every little thing seemed to make me cry. I remember a teacher called me and i started crying because i was so scared that she would scold me. turned out it was for something else.

This continued till 7th grade. It was embarassing, but I managed. When I was 1st or 2nd grade, I had a tendency to refuse school activities. Like during sports, I would refuse to participate in a certain activity like running. The teacher had to force me to do something.

At that time I was already shy. I remember on a new school year (2nd grade). Someone approached me to introduce himself but I hid behind my mom instead. Around that time, my family and teachers started to notice that I was unusually quiet. I was exceptionally good at math, one of the best students in that area. This is a blessing because noone ever bullied me because they needed my help on homeworks. Unfortunately, this had a disadvantage. One day a teacher asked a math question and I really didnt know the answer. the teacher scolded me and said that she knew i knew the answer but i just didnt want to answer.

Unfortunately noone knew what my condition is. maybe they think that I was quiet on purpose, that i didnt want to socialize on purpose, that i was being unfriendly. noone tried to help me properly. my parents usually scold me for being too quiet. one day a family friend asked me a question and it took me 3-4 seconds to answer it. my mom scolded me and said i should've answered immediately. my uncles and aunts told my mom not to worry because they thought i would grow out of it when i grew up. unfortunately, this is not the case.

my speaking problem continues till today. i have problems saying 'thank you' or 'please to anyone. not because i don't want to but it's just hard for me to say it. i don't have a problem saying 'excuse me' though. i have a problem calling anyone by name. i never call anyone, not even my friends, by their name. i always poke someone if i want to say something. i have a problem calling anyone on the phone. i need to prepare myself for about 10 minutes before i can call someone. i prefer emailing or text messaging someone if i want to ask something even if it's easier to just call them.

i have a few good friends and i'm lucky to have them because i have a problem making new ones. i do make new friends over the internet though. i like to play mmorpgs and few people i met online became pretty good friends even though i never met them.

i always suspected that i might have autism but other people dismiss it because i get very good grades. unfortunately good grades mean very little in real life when you dont have good conversation and social skill. i dont give very good job interviews. it's a good think my uncle let me work in one of his companies. otherwise i wouldnt be able to get any job. people still think i'm being anti-social on purpose. this isn't true at all. i want to be able to speak freely and make new friends and go to party.

i only learned about asperger syndrome yesterday when i was browsing wikipedia. then it hit me. maybe this is what i have. i read the whole article and it fits me a lot. i havent got a diagnosis from a professional but it's my own conclusion. i speculated a lot of reasons for my condition from post-traumatic stress disorder to autism but asperger syndrome seems to be the most fitting answer.

anyway, nice to meet you all.

almost forgot. i want to tell you what i like. i like all the geeky stuff! comic books, star trek, most sci-fi and fantasy genre, video games. i hate all the "cool stuff" like shopping, clubbing, loud music. i dont drink, although i can if i'm forced to. i don't smoke and i'm very anti-smoking, but i don't want cigarette companies to fold because they provide a significant portion of my country's GDP. i hate branded luxurius goods like expensive watches, prada, gucci, versace. i like books. i like reading. right now i like to spend hours just read stuff over the internet. i'm very interested in history especially wars and battles and how they shaped the world into what it is today.

Nice to meet you, Aaron. You have my cousin first name.

Hi Aaron and welcome to WP
I also learned about AS on Wikepedia and I like reading and history too

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Tim

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