My name is Patrick. I've been struggling most of my life with obsessive habits, social anxiety, getting stuck on details, avoiding interactions with people, major depression and anxiety. It wasn't until recently that I seriously considered that I have an autism spectrum disorder (can I call it that?). I haven't been diagnosed, and honestly I'm not even sure where to start or who to ask, but it's something worth noting. I've recently watched many videos and taken a few tests that suggest it's highly likely that I'm autistic, and it made me want to panic because at least with anxiety, there are treatments. What if this is something I can't do anything about?
And what if my friends and family could always see it, and I couldn't? Eesh.
Anyway, my interests are online gaming and forums (surprise!). I guess my goal here is to meet other people who share my traits and see how they deal with them, because I'm almost 45, and I should probably have known this stuff a long, long time ago... but then, I realize things weren't always that easy when I was a kid as far as diagnoses went. I have tried to appear "normal" for so long, it's exhausting.
PS: I'm going into all of this blind, ie: I read the posting rules but I'm still not sure of what I can and can't say or what might be considered a slur in the community, so bear with me.
PPS: Oh, I have also been diagnosed with ADHD.