mangooo wrote:
Hi. I'm new here.
I'm not sure if I'm autistic since the professional assessment is quite expensive. But right now I'm struggling with socializing in college and feeling really insecure about my abilities as a law student.
I do go to therapy for other reasons but once I briefly mentioned autism to my therapist and she said I didn't have it even tho I was never evaluated for that particular reason.
I've tried talking to friends and family about my problems in college but they just don't understand it and minimize my experience. They think it's all in my head but I just feel like I'm unable to connect with others and people always have this strange look on their faces when they talk to me. As if they felt bad for me or weirded out.
If not autistic then I'm still really bad at socializing, I always feel really lonely and like I'm missing something that everyone else has.
I mean, I have around 3 close friends from high school that I meet from time to time. In college there's a couple of people I talk to when we share classes together but I'm always left behind and feel not welcomed, they're just being polite.
Sorry for dumping all of my problems in here! And for the bad english!!
Welcome. I'd probably start watching channels by autistic Youtubers and interacting on sites like this. It should help a lot in terms of whether or not what is happening with us resonates with you. That's not really official, you'd want to follow that up with either self-diagnosis based on the appropriate standard where you live, or getting an official formal one if that's something you have available and want to deal with.
The reality is that being bad at socializing doesn't necessarily say much, but when taken with other bits of your life, can be rather telling.
15 Apr 2023, 3:41 pm
