TL;DR: I'm an adult who was (preliminarily) diagnosed with ASD yesterday. Hi
So here's the story: my girlfriend had been trying to get me to get tested for ADHD for over a year because I fidget constantly, have trouble paying attention to conversations, am impulsive, etc. I finally broached the subject with the Nurse Practitioner I see for my anxiety and depression and she suggested that we do preliminary diagnostic testing while I am on the wait list for neuropsych testing. Yesterday, we wrapped up the preliminary diagnostic testing and she told me that I meet all the diagnostic criteria for ADHD, but likely only because I am on the spectrum, which was a surprise to me.
Flashback: at various points in my life, I have suspected I might be autistic, but I brushed it off because I have also suspected bipolar, schizophrenia, OCD, psychopathy, Munchhausen syndrome (ironic, I know), and all manner of other issues that a rational person likely wouldn't consider. When I was 13, I was struggling with school (and with mental health) and was diagnosed with non-verbal learning disorder (NVLD). But the psychologist who tested me only explained how NVLD affected me in school and she warned my parents not to do any research online about the condition (I'm not sure why she said that). My parents and I kinda forgot about it by the time I was in high school because I was doing much better with my school work. I explained my struggles as a 13-year-old on undiagnosed depression and treated NVLD as a misdiagnosis because I thought it was super shady that the psychologist had told my parents not to look it up.
Present day: for the past 20 hours or so I have been wrapping my head around my new (preliminary) diagnosis. I'm not sure I feel "autistic," but I also don't feel like I'm not on the spectrum. I feel like I don't really understand what autism actually is, even though I keep reading articles online about it. My Nurse Practitioner recommended that I do some reading, but that I steer clear of NT writers, so I thought I would try joining a neurodivergent online community like WP.
Also, I'm being laid off on Friday, so that's fun. I'll probably complain about that here at some point.
So anyway, hi