Hokulea wrote:
Welcome to Wrong Planet.
The realisation that I might be autistic was such a gradual process, that I wasn't really surprised when I got an official diagnosis. In fact my words after being told that I "did meet the threshold for an autism diagnosis" were: "Ok... About what I expected".
I wish I could remember what my reaction was to my mother first telling me about 14 years before my diagnosis, that I might have autism. I think though, I mostly put it to the back of my mind until the autism assessment process.
When going through the autism assessment process, the more inevitable being autistic seemed for me, especially when looking into autistic traits.
Mine was an “Aha” moment because things finally made sense. I was misdiagnosed earlier in 2019 of having bipolar. The medication for bipolar was really bad for me. As much as I already felt alienated in this world, the medications made me feel even more detached and “zombified”. It was not until recently, a new doctor told me I did not have bipolar, I was just autistic. Then I was off from the medication I had and suddenly the world seemed more realistic. But relearning about myself is still a struggle and I am hanging in there. Hope you’re having a great day! Cheers
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“No one size fits all. We are all our own personalities, and yet we are also autistic.”
Self-stigma is real and exists because of how we have been conditioned to believe that everyone has the capabilities like NTs.
Healing is a journey, not a straightforward process