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Hello everybody.

I stumbled randomly on this site while ago, and as i was already familiar with the diagnosis and stuff like that, just thought it would be good idea to make a little introduction of me here.

Probably fair to say first that i am myself at the moment at the border of the diagnosis. Chances are that the criteria doesn't even match me anymore, and in the case they would, i would definitely be a mild case. Actually that is quite intresting as when i was still a child, i matched the diagnosis perfectly. In other words i was a stereotype of the diagnosis. I just had my own intrests, not much caring what other children did, and when I was like 7-8 years old, just a while after starting school, i had "earned" a title of proffesor among my peers. This was due to the fact i was at that time really intrested in stuff relating to space and at one point to dinosaurs, and i just knew a vast amount little kinda irrelevant pieces of information about them. Space and dinoasaurs... If that doesn't fit stereotype aspie as a child, then what does? I have later found out that ADD diagnose matched me as i kid quite well too. At the age of 16 i first time felt that i actually was able to be something else than a shy guy in the corner, and since then i've managed to grow all the time more to the NT direction.

But to the business now. Me shortly:

I'm 18 year old male living in Finland. 191 cm tall (~6 1/3 feet) and no, i don't look like a stick Consider myself relatively good looking, but thats only my opinion I know i should tell something about myself as person, but i think this topic will give an image of some sort.

And to what you are probably thinking, yes, i have grown mentally just incredible amounts in the last 2 years. If i would tell my childhood in more detail, i think none of you would doubt that i had AS. If you met me now in person, i think none of you would even think of it, and in the case i would say, you wouldn't believe. Of course this must have required softening on my social impairments during my adolescence before the age of 16. It was just about learning to trust myself. Its not easy to think you can be something else than a social disaster, if you have been one all your live, nevertheless that you suddenly have the potential. This may sound quite hard to believe, but i think it's becouse i may have been somewhat mild case from the beginning, though without question a AS, but it is fact that symptoms should get milder on the corner of adulthood, and thats just what happened to me.

I have all the symtptoms remaining, just that they are so much milder than they used to be. I have still special intrests, but what has changed, i'm not 24/7 stuck to them anymore, and they are no longer so focused on one narrow thing, but to more wide subjects. Even though from time to time i still get really stuck on something like Rubik's cube, but it will last maximum of like 1-2 weeks, so thats pretty much nothing comparing to some peoples 1-2 year intrest on something.

What i'm intrested at the moment then? Math is one of my strong points, and it is something you can never completely master so theres always something new intresting waiting. Also i'm really into natural sciences like physics. I'm also kinda philosophical mind and i really feel like i have something to say about it. I play chess on regular basis, and i like all other games like that: go, pente, checkers... you name it, i'm into it. I also mentioned Rubik's cube before. Puzzles like that are like hobby of mine, but as i mentioned, it's not so AS obsessive you could think. By the way my record on rubik's cube is 67 seconds. Nothing that amazing, but in my opinion not badly as i haven't put that much time on it.

From that list you could get image i'm just complete geek and what i talked about being more to the NT direction is just complete BS. The fact is my intrests may be very geekish, but no, i don't look like one, i don't behave like one, and the people i hang out are just normal guys and i get along with just like one of them. 2 years ago, yes i was a complete geek, without question, but not anymore. If i would want to be like one again, no problem, but why i would?

People here on WP are completely free contact me any way they desire, and you don't need to think you should share intrest or anything. Intresting thing is, that other aspies i know and have their intrests, i get really easily intrested in those subjects too. Aspies just tend to pick intrests that i can easily get into too. But no, you don't need to have intresting intrest in order to do that.

Hope you guys managed to read it all ^^

Last edited by Aze on 05 Sep 2007, 10:51 am, edited 1 time in total.

Welcome to WP!

Tim

Welcome to WrongPlanet

Welcome on here^^

Welcome. I'm also new here and borderline AS/NT. It's kind of funny how in certain cases, it's a bit easier to control the symptoms as you get older. I've had that experience as well...

Also, cool that you're from Finland. Many great metal bands come from those parts.

Was going to say "... like HammerFall!" But then I remembered they're from Sweden.

Welcome to WP! It's great that you've been able to branch out more over the years. You sound very balanced. I hope you enjoy your time here.

Just wanted to say "Hi"

Hi, and welcome to Wrongplanet!

My ancestors are from Scandinavia, and yes, I have tried Finnish Summer Soup.

Enjoy posting!

Welcome, Aze!

I did manage to read your post. It wasn't difficult. For a non-native Eglish speaker, you did very well.

I hope you find good information, inspiration, companionship, comfort and good humor here.

I have met someone else here from Finland. Perhaps you will too.

Explore and enjoy.

At first i'd like to thank you guys. From all of the sites including discussion section i've been in, in here i've gotten one of the the warmest welcome so far. That's kind of intresting as this site is afterall about people with AS having a way to interract with each other, and the stereotype image of aspie, as we know, is emotianally very cold. Of course that's just the image. Reality is, as proven once again, in most cases something completely different.

After reading number of other people postings here, some of them about people with really difficult situations in their lives, and after that came back to my own which is about just saying hello, and that i'm doing fine. Didn't really make me feel good about it.

The fact is that not more than something like 5-6 months ago i had myself just huge identity-crisis going on. My mood was swinging up and down same rate as my self-esteem was, and it was really unstable. I think that mostly it was about breaking finally out from the mold of the previous me.

At younger age i had had really hard time accepting myself as i was, but had managed to achieve a stable state of some sort. It was like ripping all that away. At times i felt that i can cope just like any other person here, and just moment later got the feeling "no, you can't". I find it quite difficult to explain what it was like, but in all honestness at times i felt so disgusted of myself that all i could do was just for hours to think how my life had been and would be complete misery.

I don't feel like i went worse than before at any time, but getting on my feet occasionally really made me see how uncomfortable it was to be at floor to be freely trampled by anyone. Stable state of some sort as i referred earlier wasn't that nice state to be in, but if you don't know from better, how could you be supposed complain about it?

On my first post i said that nobody would doubt me having AS if i told about my childhood in detail. At this point it should be pretty obvious that one reason why i didn't do that is that it's not that nice story to tell nor read. I well might do that a some point but it'll take whole another thread. The reason why i wrote all this was just to show that I know what some of you guys have gone or are going through. And i still feel this was the light version of it. But without question, i'm in pretty good shape now.

Intresting thing is, that now afterwards writing that I feel have somewhat better grasp on what it was all about. It's absolutely true when people say dealing with your innermost feelings at time to time is good idea.

I think this went quite off-topic if you think what was the purpose of the thread but can you blame me, this is my own thread anyway, right?

And btw, sorry about my habit of writing these just gigantic answers

You are very welcome!

Dear Aze:

Thank you for your thank you.

Like any group of people, there is diversity among Aspies. Some are warm, some are very hot, some are cool, and some are quite frigid. Furthermore, some of us are so brief that you might as well be reading a bumper sticker or hearing a zen koan. Others can let words flow out in such length that some will glaze their eyes and stop listening, or will cringe upon seeing the text and won't bother reading it. I have lived with someone all my life who on ocassion has been accused of using too many words: me. So, welcome to that particular sub-set of Aspies.

It is certainly true that many Aspies have experienced considerable suffering in their lives. Some are reluctant to share their suffering because suffering is an unpleasant story to hear or read, and many people don't like spreading unpleasantries. In addition, some people do not respond kindly to such revelations.

This has reminded me of an old saying that has some truth to it:

A joy shared is a joy doubled.

A burden shared is a burden halved.

So, do share your good times. And, you may find people here with whom you feel comfortable sharing your suffering and who will respond with great empathy and helpfulness.

As to going off topic, I thought the topic was your introduction, which means your second post is relevant.

So, I believe you are doing quite well here, Aze, and I wish you the best on your journey.

Alan
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Welcome on this momentous day!

Welcome,

You are not as far away as you think.

I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be diagnosed as AS even if I went for it, but I think what you said is quite true. I do just fine in the NT world at the moment, but the truth is that it doesn't make me NT in any way. I'm not claiming that I would be way ahead of average AS, what would be the point of being here in that case anyway? Sorry if some of you guys got the image.

Welcome, Aze. Glad to hear that you're coping well.