Ok, so I made my real introduction on another thread, but I think I'm past the shock phase: http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt49473.html
Um, my name's Raf and I'm a senior in college, office manager/vp of a marketing office, and I'm an entrepreneur. Im currently in the start-up phase of my music marketing company.
I think I behave like a typical college student, I go to parties, go to bars, drink, go to concerts, road trips, and among other recreational stuff.
But I am scared of relationships of any kind. I'm great meeting strangers and people I don't have to commit myself to because I can just put up a front to last me that time. But I'm in trouble if I meet the same person more then twice.
My only real girlfriend was in high school and it was fun but her parents were muslims, and I couldn't date her so we had to sneak around and we still met-up until last year when she got married. It was more of a game then a relationship. Since then I've been too scared to commit myself and am unfortunately contempt with just one night stands or random hook-ups. I feel less intimidated, but I do want to have someone one day that I can feel comfortable with in the long term.
I have a great business mind. I play the stock market, I'm starting my own corporation and hopefully launching it on new years, and I manage an office of 7 and handle all client relations. I'm really good with money and documents, proposals, and writing reports involving finances. But I managed to get D's in both accounting and finance
I live in a house with 2 roommates and a dog. We moved off campus after Sophomore year cause living on campus kinda sucked. But now we're moving again since the house is for sale.
I am obsessed with religion, politics and history. I'm fascinated with the eastern philosophies and religions. I do consider myself to be a follower of Taoism. I watch CNN more then all the other channels combined. I literally have CNN on always unless there's cartoons on somewhere else. I even own Time Warner stock which owns CNN.
I have recently came to the conclusion that AS answers a lot of the questions I've had about myself. Things that I thought were unique to me are no longer after reading a bunch of case studies and reports on it. I knew something was odd about me, but I guess I just went along with the whole "Im weird" identity and tried to fit in as much as possible.
Ok, I hate to found scripted, or cliche, but after hearing about Heather in America's Next Top Model (I never heard of the show until now), I felt a sense of security seeing her interview online. She talks exactly how I do with a lot of hand movements and covering a wide range of topics that comes to her head just to answer a question. It was her video that was the soft voice telling me its going to be ok, that I'll be fine and can succeed.
Actually one of my fears always was being interviewed on TV for my business if it takes off. I've even thought about hiring a PR guy to go our and be the spokesman while I work in the backstage. But seeing her on camera made me realize that I should just act however I feel like and hope for the best.
I guess here's my official acceptance of who I am. Can't wait to see where it takes me