larsenjw92286 wrote:
Hi
Welcome, Jupiter! I understand. Being a nurse is a frustrating job. I was wondering something. Could you possibly back up the reason why your life has been so hard?[/quote]
I hope you enjoy posting here and don't hesitate to express your feelings. A number of us are online throughout the day, and we will be able to answer your questions as soon as we can, I'm sure. Also, despite your spelling difficulties, I understand what you're saying. It's ok
Hej and thank you all for the welcoming me!
I will try to explain why my life been hard(not all of the time). I always felt I was diffrent and evryone knows what happend to shildren when they dont follow the line. I never understood why people treated me bad becaurse I did´nt want to do their tings and liked to do things on my ohne. Life learned me to play a lot of rolles and I become very good in playing them. After ten years marridge and three wonderful shildren we divorsed I still dont know why. But I think I know now that things Im saying sounds diffrent in other peoples ears. And They think I wont to heart when the meaning is the oposit. Im looking very social before and arraning things and always talking. But it took all my energi I was not able to do anything at home. Im very good at my work and always doing my best. But again it takes all my energi and today when the shildren dont need my suport in the same way I have to sleep all my free time. Since summer this year I understand that its not for evryone like when I see some one coming to my house evan if I like them, I got a horrible feeling and just want to be alone. But ofcourse I always opened with a great smile and noone never understood that I just wanted them to leave. I,m not doing like that anymore and I feel so free beeing myself and dont care about what people think anymore. But I cant be my self in my work as a nurse. Now Im just working nights and thats easyer. I never have problems with my patients Im doing evrything I can for them and I love it. But I have problems with the stuff I have to play along with them and they think Im very funny and social. But my Goud it cost alot of energy. My home is a katastof and I dont understand that if I should be able to pay my bills I cant by things when ever I feel for it mostly books. My hobby is prepearing stones mostly usual stones and make their colour shine. I could fill all my life with just doing that. Its like meditation. This is just little of all . LOVE JUPITER