21 Mar 2008, 9:26 am
My names Aimee and I'm still just about 19 although I am happy to say that my shoe size is probably closer to my feeling age.
I've had 'mental health' problems for about four years now and I'm actually diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. However two years ago my psychologist mentioned in passing that I possibly had slight Autistic traits, I had no idea what that meant so she read out to me the definition and symptoms...and this light switched on in my head, neither of us were ever happy with the BPD diagnosis, it doesn't fit me at all. So much of my childhood had been not right and I started reading and researching and talking to my mum and now two years on we're pretty sure that im somewhere on the Autistic Spectrum, even my Psychiatrist agrees.
The first time I talked to him about it he told me I was talking rubbish because I wasn't like Dustin Hoffmans character in The Rain Man 
My psychologist believes I may have Aspergers and that 19 years with no support led to severe depression. I...am a self harmer, I am trying to stop.
So here I am, in April I'll be seeing a specialist psychologist, im so so scared that she's going to say no this isn't it and that will be it, back to the start, no reason for me being so different from everyone, for me having no friends, for not even being able to have simple conversations or even playing games when I was a child and for being so ridiculously obsessive etc.
But either way I've done so much research and even if I find out that the Autistic Spectrum isn't the answer then one day I would like to work with children with Autism and Aspergers.
I've been lurking here for a while and everyone seems nice.
Im only a member of one other forum and one of the only ways I get by is copying back what people say-
hence too much 'love xx' etc.
It looks so much more comfortable here.
That's me, I'm sorry it's kind of long.
Aimee
21 Mar 2008, 10:21 am
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21 Mar 2008, 10:37 am
To WrongPlanet!! !
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21 Mar 2008, 11:06 am
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21 Mar 2008, 11:46 am
welcome aimee
i'm 33 and still don't feel any older than my shoe size!
21 Mar 2008, 11:51 am
Nice to meet you, Aimee. 
21 Mar 2008, 12:01 pm
Thank you
Im sorry I babbled, I'm not very good at explaining myself!
Shoe sizes are such wonderful ages to be
Thank you Lelia, I would like to stay, already I have found things that help.
Everyone's so kind.
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21 Mar 2008, 12:44 pm
Hi and welcome. You seem nice. Umm...good luck in April. I'm going in April too...the 4th. I'm pretty nervous myself...dreading it actually. My mom thinks I have a chemical inbalence. My doctor thinks I have a panic disorder. My teachers think ASD. I think I'm confused..... But anyway I hope you enjoy your stay!! !
OH!! ! And I love love love Pegasis(even if I can't spell it properly)!
21 Mar 2008, 1:02 pm
Good luck to you to! I'll think of you, I hope it goes well for you.
I am a huge Disney obsessive
21 Mar 2008, 2:15 pm
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22 Mar 2008, 4:14 pm
Hi Aimee,
welcome to WP.
I'm sure that your assessment will go fine...they are hardly ever as bad as you imagine them in your mind!
Whatever the outcome, feel free to post here regardless.
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23 Mar 2008, 10:02 am
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23 Mar 2008, 10:24 am
Welcome to the forum, Aimee!
You seem to be a really nice person! 
23 Mar 2008, 11:19 am
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So here I am, in April I'll be seeing a specialist psychologist, im so so scared that she's going to say no this isn't it and that will be it, back to the start, no reason for me being so different from everyone, for me having no friends, for not even being able to have simple conversations or even playing games when I was a child and for being so ridiculously obsessive etc.
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Hi Aimee, welcome here.
About the psychologist: Making a proper diagnosis is really difficult, some syndromes are really close to each other. The most important thing is that you get some kind of diagnosis, that you can use to get further help. The diagnosis is not the ultimate goal, it is accepting yourself and getting around in life and be happy with yourself.
About your 'feeling age'; you should try european shoe sizes... that would make you feel old
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23 Mar 2008, 4:36 pm
Hi craola welcome to the "right" Planet 
