A Tentative Hello

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What is your first name?
Geremy
Age:
25
Location:
Arizona
Hobbies and Interests:
WoW, varied console rpgs, D&D
Why are you here?
I am compeled
When were you diagnosed?(skip if you don't have a disorder):
I think today(Long term self analysis, and recently, online investigation into Aspergers)
Favorite subjects:
Math
Year/Grade:
?
Favorite music:
Electronic
Books:
D&D
TV shows/Movies:
Na
Instrument:
Na
Do you like sports?
No
Family:
Yes, with wife and child (I began my investigation in regards to my son's learning difficulties)
Clothing:
Blue, and some green or black?
How did you find this website?
Wikki
Job:
Avionics technician
Plans for the future?
Undetermined
Any comments?
Well, I am new here. I don't think I am severely affected, I have managed to lead a semi-normal life. I have never been diagnosed officially, and without someone connecting the dots for me I have basically done my best to avoid anything to do with openly admitting I am different than other people, in regards to how I function, mentally. I have had immense difficulties however, and when I began to notice some learning difficulties in my own son I knew that I needed to face reality and look into this. My searching has brought me here, and I, well, wanted to say hello, regarless of how nervous this is making me. I feel it's incredibly important that I know as much as I can, so as best to find out how to proceed with my boy. Do you think I should seek a diagnosis for him? Purhaps to know exactly how best to prepare him for life's intersting challenges? I don't really know, hopefully someone here may have some advice.

welcome!

Nice to meet you, Geremy.

Describe some of your D&D characters to us!

- D

It's a journey you've started on.

To WrongPlanet!! !

Too many characters to list them all here, well, I could, but I doubt I have the time. I spose I could describe a few of my longest played ones.

Darien Kismon, was a human fighter-mage back in 2nd edition, my earliest character. Was a noble born, and quested throughout a realm completely designed personally by our dm at the time. The whole campaign had a mild anime touch. There where an amazing number of adventures we went on, as the campaign lasted nearly 3 years, and played 2-3 times a week for up to 8 hrs. Yet we only ever reached level 6. My characters personality was extremly similar to my own initial, as I was new to the practical aplication of playing another persona in this manner. But after a short while he developed his own unique characteristics.

Another of the long lived characters was Kelis Amberglow. A gnome mage. I started playing him when 3rd edition was first released and eventually became an Incantatrix. In this campaign, we had 7 "players" and I eventually used feats extenssively for item creation, charging group members for only 80% of the normal gold value for items I made for them, and as we had more gold and free time alotted to us than a normal campaign, my character became immensly rich in a reletively short amount of time. It was particularly funny that I had the opportunity to do this, because after a while (roughly a year of rl time) everyone in the party basically used only my magic items. Unfortunately for them, I had secretly from day one installed fail safes in every single item to allow me to turn them off. And while I found it extremly comical to suprise them all, by using the fail safes to shut all of thier gears magical properties off when we where ambushed by an elder blue dragon and teleport myself to safety one day, inevitably it ended said campaign....stupid gnomes and thier offcenter sense of humor.


All in all, I am very satisfied with my early exposure to this, and similar games. They helped me in having a better sense of self, and to be cappable of playing alternate roles then I would not normally be able to. When I need to be friendly and outgoing, I draw on my experiences of playing a friendly and outgoing character to aid the situation. Maybe it is a crutch, I am not sure exactly, but it's most certainly helped me "fit in" with others.

PS Why am I an "Emu Egg"? Is that personal setting I haven't found yet, or something beyond my customization?

Welcome to the forum, Geremy!!

Over the last few days I think I've been entirely too introspective. I have recounted many of the instances of my life and recalled the many trials and tribulations therin. Yet every conclusion I come to results the same, that indeed I am an Aspie. And quite frankly it scares the s**t out of me. I've always told myself, repeatedly that I am normal, everyone has the problems I do with relating to others and that I am just not good at masking it. But, that really isn't so is it? Normal people don't conciously decide the exact arrangment of muscular movements on thier faces to form the most apropriate facial expressions to suit the situation. Normal people can see and understand the unconcious movements and gestures of others. They don't break down into a state of complete uncommuncativeness when the stress of talking to someone unknown strikes, repeatedly, daily. They don't shake in anxiety writing some message on an internet forum! God, I could go on, but I would be preaching to the choir, I think. How, how did I go this long without being diagnossed, or even the potential of it ever being mentioned to me? I talked with my parents today, earlier, about how I was when younger and through adolescence. And thier accounts are the same as my own, and in every way support the conclusion. Maybe they didn't want to see it, I don't know....arrrg, this whole thing is driving me crazy, cannot stop recounting and anylising. But, even if I do have Aspers, of which I am most certain I do, what is even the point of getting a diagnosis? There isn't a "cure", nor do I think I'd exactly want one. Maybe proffesional help with social anxiety, but even then I do every possible thing I can think of to improve in that regard. But, I am honestly so tired of it all, the concious effort needed to "play normal" is so extensive it gets harder and harder every day to keep doing it. Ugh, why does it matter? So what if I don't f'n look people in the eye, or feel comfortable around strangers. So what if I don't physically show any signs of emotion? Why isn't enough to just feel them, and occasionally inform others of my emotional state when I feel it relevant? Even now, I am angry at the world, frustrated with myself, and why should it be so important that I need to show that to people? Why, why do I have to try so hard, GD it. Ugh, I digress. I know, I am ranting, I know in comparison to others I may even have it easy. I just, I ...suppose this post is selfish. A self indulgent plea for understanding, to really the only place I have ever seen that could feasible offer it. And the only thing stopping me from deleting it completely is I want to get to know people here, and deleting it would countermine my attempt to introduce myself, quirks and all.

PS Wall of text crits you for 22k. You die.
Your equipment takes 10% durability damage.

Hey it's alright, we all get that.

I felt a bit frustrated too when mum or dad go "Tim, look at me!" and I feel like saying back "But I can hear what you're saying, and I understand what you're saying to me. Isn't that all that matters?!" Funnily and conversely enough, my mum once told me to stop wearing shades because she found it unnerving that she COULDN'T see my eyes!

Oh, and uhm... ow, -5 damage? (I really have no idea how to play)

Welcome to the game of masked perceptions.

None of the players can truely read the others,

Points are scored by bridging the missing places.

The game Battleship had something like this.

Hi Geremy,

welcome to WP.

Don't worry about ranting...it needs to come out sooner or later...and it's better to let it out sooner.
Aspergers is still only being recognized by a lot of doctors, which is probably why you weren't diagnosed as a child. I was diagnosed at age 15, which isn't "too late", but not early either.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy posting here.

Hi, Geremy!

Welcome to Wrongplanet!

I hope you enjoy posting here!

Welcome Geremy!