New possible Aspie. Needs support :(

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Hi there!
I'm Anna and I'm and 19 year old girl from Sweden, I currently am studying media and movie making in my last year of high school/college and I am so glad I found this place!

Well, hopefully people aren't gonna think I'm a pretend Aspie because of this but I first got aware of the syndrome through Heather at ANTM. I didn't really get the knowledge what aspergers was all about so I just felt bad for her and could understand how she felt. But I never thought it could be something I had, but now I do.

I read a magazine at school a couple of days ago and came upon a text about a girl with the Aspergers so I thought ''well now I get to know a little bit about it''. This girl wrote that something she used to do as a kid was to flap her hands and arms when she was excited and that was something I did alot as a kid and that I am still doing today and reading this made my heart skip a beat because none of my parents knew why I did this and they just joked around saying ''Oh, girl where are you off to?'' while my classmate would tease me and say stuff like ''What the h*ll is wrong with you?'' which hurt me alot and made me think I was a freak.

I decided to look up more about Aspergers on the internet and my best friend (who doesn't think I have aspergers) looked up all this tests that some of em prove her wrong. So I didn't really know, it all seemed to fit but maybe my friend was right and I'm just thinking I have aspergers. I got home to my mom and the next day I told her about Aspergers and she's torn. She thinks I should see a doctor and make him look into it. She thinks I have it except that I am very social with the people I know but I read that people with aspergers can be social too, right? My boyfriend thinks I might have it too so on thursday I'm calling a doctor to see if I can talk to someone about this. I can't talk about it with my friend because she ''doesn't support me'' and my mum just wants to prove me wrong even though she agrees that the majority of the facts we've read fits.


Some emotions and things I have that maybe is related to aspergers.

- I get obsessed with things easily. Like a band, an actor, a movie, a cartoon figure and things like that.
Right now it's the band Lordi which I have all over my wall , the obsessions come and go.

- I get exhausted after a day of school, not just because it's hard work but because of the social situations.
I am somewhat of the classclown and do my best to make people happy but as soon as I get home I lock myself into my room and watch friends or sit by the computer.

- When I am focused at something (editing a movie or a photo) I am 100% focused and don't want to get interupted.. The hours just fly by.

- I need every day and all my life organised. If not I feel lost or I have a hard time doing things I need to do.
I even buy all this books (how to live your life) just to have something to follow and feel safe.

- I do socialize with my classmates and people I know and I don't get embaressed easily so I am kind of a class clown and a fun person, but with strangers I'm like an alien in a shell. I went to a language course in London and thought that since I am so confident and social now since I turned 17, then maybe I can meet some friends.. But I didn't, I sat by myself almost all the time until someone came talking to me.

- I didn't learn how to tie my shoes or learned the clock until I was 12.

- My mum choose my clothes for me until I was 11.

- I get upset when someone tells me things like ''We're going to grandmothers house right now'' because it ruins my day of ''planned boredome by the computer''. I get upset even though I deeply want to go see my grandmother... just not today.

- When I get excited I walk faster or talk louder.

- I love dressing up and when I was a kid I loved playing pretend games.

- I am very picky with food and has been since I was a kid, I'm better now but I have a hard time trying new things.

- I talk before I think.


Sorry if I have bored you all, I'm just looking for my home planet.
I have nothing against aspergers but half of me just asks god that I do not have it, even though it wouldn't really affect the person I am today but it would maybe make me feel even more alone than I already do.
But I also pray to god that I do have it, because it would give me so many answer and give me a reason for being bullied and feeling alone my whole life.

I wish you all a great day, night, afternoon and it would mean alot if someone could tell me what they think about the things I wrote here and maybe give the support I will never get from my close ones.


- Kissemiss/Anna

Last edited by Kissemiss on 16 Apr 2008, 8:39 am, edited 3 times in total.

Nice to meet you, Anna.

Just to correct you Asperger's Syndrome isn't a disease at all. To most of us here its a gift in some cases.

Thanks alot .

Sorry, didn't really know what to call it .
Well if I do have it, I guess the concentration part is a gift to me .

And I sorry if I offend people by saying things I think is right about Aspergers, I'm just a newbie and I feel kinda lost :/.

There are nutcases out there like Autism Speaks that think Autism Spectrum Disorders are diseases but in reality aren't at all. I'm not offend at all one bit. Just doing my job of saving people.

Well thank you

A lot of what you have written does sound like Aspergers, but the thing to remember is, whether you find out you have it or not doesn't matter in a way, because you will still be the same. It is just *knowing* whether you have it or not. Does that make sense?

There are just a couple of things I'd like to point out though:

I think everyone does this.


I think this is a rather strong indication that the problem is not Aspergers, unless you have mistaken a different sort of play for imaginary play. Children with Aspergers often imitate/act out things they've seen on the TV or in the street etc., sometimes word-for-word. This is often mistaken for imaginaitive play but isn't at all. It is just imitation.

However, everything else you have said seems to indicate Aspergers.

Sorry - forgot to say hello

Thank you .
Yeah my mum said that too, about the talking and walking. I read on a swedish psychology website that this might be something you can do but maybe it's not .

Aah okay, well I do consider some people from tv-shows and movies to somehow have brought me up.
Because for example a friend said that I'm like a mixture of my favorite characters from cartoons and tv-shows.
But maybe that's not the same thing.

But thank you .

No problem. I'm always willing to help others. Enjoy your stay here at Wrong Planet.

From what you've said, I'm guessing that you probably aren't 100% NT * (Neurotypica, that is not Asperger's or Autistic), but I think that's awesome! I don't like NT's much in general, although there are a few that are pretty okay.

And for the record, I'm a diagnosed aspie (mid-range), and I used to be obsessed with playing pretend games. You don't have to meet every single criteria to qualify.

Hope you find some semblance of a home here.

And just out of curiosity, what other bands do you like? (I listen to a lot of music from Finland and Sweden, and Europe in general. It's mostly metal. I don't think that i've ever listened to Lordi. I probably should though.)

To WrongPlanet!! !

Welcome to WP!

Thank you all .
I'm gonna call a hospital tomorrow and find someone to talk to.

Hi and welcome.

I used to play a lot playing pretend games as a child, and I've always been generally imaginitive. I had a test two days ago which I hadn't studied for, so I made up stories about joints and blood sugar curves.

It will not help me in any way, but at least it puts me apart from those boring people who just skip the question when they don't know

Is this an aspie trait? I'm the complete opposite; I often wish I would get to think for at least ten minutes before actually saying something, if I have to speak at all. I always imagined this had to do with aspergers, I’ve heard many others aspies are quiet and lost in thought. I mean it doesn’t really matter which, but I would just like to know. I dislike not knowing about something, even if it’s of little importance.

Well I read somewhere that people with Aspergers tend to tell people exactly what they think.
Like if someone asks you how a skirt looks on them and think it's ugly and you say it.
Maybe I meant more something like, I come up with something I can say that will make people think I am funny and then I say it and kinda hear it with my ears and understnad that it wasn't funny at all.

But I do get lost in my thought alot of the time.
I want to be a director so as soon as I have an idea for the movie I can lie awake for hours because there's so many ideas in my head swirling around. Same with day-dreaming, I do that alot but it was worse when I was a kid. In school my teacher and the rest of the had to scream my name for me to ''wake up''

Well it’s I say what I think too, because I’m almost completely unable too lie, and I can’t see when a situation would require lying anyway. Thinking before you speak doesn’t equal speaking untruths.

Actually, if I lie it’s probably because I had not time to think. Sometimes I “lie” accidentally because I use the wrong words and I end up saying something that is actually the opposite to what I really think. That’s why I want thinking time; so that I can make sure that the words I speak are true, or at least as close to the truth as possible.

Does it make sense? I’m always unsure about how understandable my explanations really are to other people.