i am an aspie.
Aspergers syndrome. "Discovered" or "posited" or "studied" by "Hans Asperger".
It is a rare condition, occuring in less than 10 percent of the population, probably less than 2 percent,
but nobody knows for sure how many Aspies there are because At the high functioning end, An Aspie with a good
set of Coping mechanisms can fool everybody but themselves.
In the formal ideation of Modern Psychology, Aspergers Syndrome is considered in essence a minor
form of Autism. While this may even be true causaully, its not the right way to explain Aspergers Syndrome to anybody,
because Aspergers Syndrome is a VERY DIFFERENT thing than Autism.
But lets start where they do. The Autistic. Imagine a human computer. Installed with some minor glitches.
This one reverses the normative function of the immediate frontal lobes, and instead of discarding the subconscious
mind in favor of having five senses, discards five senses in favor of having a basement universe to play inside of.
The autistic lives inside of a dream of their own perpetuity, Not discriminating between "external" and "internal"
forms of reality. They favor a sort of waking somnambulism.
Which is hardly something a systems theorist can blame them for.
The normal brain, being wired for the five senses, has somehow to convince the frontal lobes that its immersed in
them. Were it not for this illusion, created by the brain of being a sense orientated creature, The 99 percent of
the communication that goes on in the brain about stuff happening in thoughts, ideations, or internal body maintenance
would as a whole brain conversation overwhelm and thundersilence the comparatively tiny streams of data which
are the sensory process.
The subconscious is subliminal because if it weren't, there would be too much noise in your head to think over.
Moving on to the scitzophrenic. Which brodman brain areas might be having too loud a chat with each with each other
there?
An Aspie, like an autistic or a scitzophrenic, has a relationship with the internal world which the normal brain
does not, but, Which the Autistic or Scitzophrenic could never imagine either.
The Aspie simply has more access to by will forms of altered states of consciousness, OR is simply hanging out in
altered states of consciousness, OR, is having a useful cogent loud conversation between ordinarilly subliminal
brodmanns brain areas. A scitzophrenic is having generally miscommunication which disturbs and frightens them.
An Autistic is so enamored of the mind that he never leaves it. An Aspie, like an autistic knows of an inner world
and tends to live there. But the aspie, unlike the autistic, or the Scitzophrenic does know the difference between
the inner and outer world, and not getting the two even as confused as most normal people do, with their projections
and their shadow issues and their bears and their inner lions and tigers and demons, (OH MY!).
Aspergers Syndrome exists itself as one band on a larger spectrum, a spectrum defined by psychological relationship
to inner and outer reality.
The autistic person can't leave inner reality behind until they are taught to.
The Aspie on the other hand is rendered a visiting Alien.
Farther away than most peoples furthest Science Fiction Star,
And yet Closer than the Total human Bellcurve
Aspies are the real Aliens; From another universe, but hanging out here because the body seems handy.
(And, sometimes inescapable.)
The true proportions of this in the psychology sense are larger than the normal mind can imagine.
But consider this. The human brain is still in theory the most powerful computer ever designed or built.
To equal its computational power would require still building something costing billions if not trillions of dollars.
The software it runs is uncracked, and we can't program computers to do many tasks humans do without even thinking
about it. The occipital lobes which suspend the normal mind in its day dreams and its dreams both, while at the same
time juggling the process of the actual visual information, sends a report to the frontal lobes which then tells
the frontal lobes what is "seen."
Everything you have ever seen, by the time it reaches "You", is but a neurally carried signal. The sophistication
of this neural computer like network is so great that you are immersed in it and think that its you.
People get the idea that they ARE their experiences; What comes from having five senses.
But thats not what we really are. What we really are, all of us, is a fractal holomorphic equation, iterated
in tandem of a mass variation subroutine. That fractal equation is the whole of the universe, which our consciousness
is merely one speck of. Consciousness; a mere property of all mass and energy and information, focalized into the ability
to interact non ghostlike with physicality by virtue of inhabiting animal bodies.
The animal bodies focus and enhance and carry that signal, but they are not the origin of it, they are just one
more chemical and atomic fractalization set, at the macrochemical scale. The same fractal equations built all
of quantum mechanics, all of Atomic Mechanics, All of Chemistry and All of Biochemistry, the planets, the stars,
the galaxies, just successive iterations of the same fractal inside of itself at many different scales.
That "Inner" world, and that "outer world" are two examples of that scalar level. Further studying the mind one
learns that beta brainwave conditions lock a person to awareness of the five senses and a waking mind. Alpha conditions
are the consciousness of the brain as self unit; And desolve the brains mental compartmentalization. Dreams are
the activity the occipital lobes provides to cover the after hours staff meeting of the brodmanns brain areas.
Signals from the subconscious mind, making past the filter provided to keep the beta level brain thinking its
the whole thing. Theta brainwaves are actually the brain invested in a different external reality; That of the
neurologic body. And Delta brainwaves are the brains resting state; Where most of the brain turns "off".
"Crazy" Is in most cases an inapropriate phase state interaction, Where one persons Brainwave states are connecting
them to a reality which is socially incongruent. "Sane" however, is just one location in the matrix of possible
"crazy" locations, which just happens to be the locations agreed upon via mostly pack psychology process.
And Aspies on the low end get to be the victims of the peculiar problem of this; That civilizations assumptions
of its own neutrality are just as insane as any paranoid delusional psychotic. Yet, Society operates by having
a majority agree to a version of reality. Its just a version. Its not reality.
In the many voices of the demon pundits, "Everybody is entitled to an opinion."
This is rash nonsense. An opinion is an unwarranted idea fomented for political purposes by some body
using propaganda. It is devoid of sense, disconnected from reason or knowledge, and does nothing whatsoever towards
resolving any given problem. All opinions are equally useless. The only thing of value is an educated decision
based on a total understanding of a situation, its parameters, its assorted causes and effects, the natural laws
inovled, and so forth.
When one opens their mind, they begin to see across the gap. With study, An Aspie can begin to understand human
culture not as a participant, but as a scientist, as a reverse lab rat joke, where god shrinks the lab techie
and puts him in with the rats in the rat maze. On the other side, Humans who study psychology and who live with
an aspie in the family might get to understand their Aspie, at least from the theoretical side.
But that one gap is in some ways a fractal echo of all gaps. The Gap between the conscious and unconscious mind,
a stone wall for most minds and a road for aspies, We find there inside the echoes of the fractal equation,
and the more we unravel, the closer we come to self knowledge. And true self knowledge is the wings that crosses
all gaps, for there is in truth only one self to know. We are all sleeping fractal microbits, tricked by human bodies
into thinking of self as local to those bodies. But self is as infinite as space and time, and is bound only
by sufficient phase quantity to scale laws as to how present or awake it is in any given space or time.
And Time is only one place ever, and that is "Now."
All pasts are recorded by all quantae's spins and properties, and chaos, entropy, and order take place as tiny
additions and subtractions from all things everywhere. The string of Nows are thus just another illision created
by being biochemical. Time is orbits around a sun or orbits around an atomic nucleus, locative potential phase
states meandering around wave forms exploring their most probable positions in their positional matrixes.
An Aspie or A Human inherits a labyrinth. For a human, Those doors are all closed and that country within
unknown. For an Aspie, Those doors are all open and that country within is home.
Which choice is Saner?
Unlike an Autisic or a Scitzophrenic, I do not have a problem, Nor in truth any disability. Because my psychological
condition is not simply distal from the norm, it is launched foreward and ahead on the bellcurve.
Aspies were called by Hans Asperger "Little Professors." Driven by an internal light to focus the mind on some
few subjects, Aspies as Children had made themselves allready as knowledgable in some feild of knowledge as most
adults ever become. They had allready pushed themselves to specialization, and done the reading required to
understand some one thing (or two things, or three things....) Better than most adult Humans Understand their own
Specialization.
Unable to form normal Human relationships, or to understand basic human rituals, socially clueless, seemingly lost,
frequently mislabeled ret*d, bullied and picked on by their peers....Born "Eccentric."
Most human professors only become Eccentric after becoming so knowledgable that this knowledge sperates them
from the general population. Aspies go the other way. They are seperate from society and so they study some peice
of it until they know it better than almost anybody.
I am an Aspie. Aspergers Syndrome is a spectrum unto itself between high functioing Aspies ands Low Functioning
Aspies. My brain does not always run so smoothly as a humans does.
Sometimes it is a lot more like this desktop i am typing on. Sometimes it glitches and won't do what i want.
But one thing i can tell you is; I know myself on the inside better than humans do.
And this has slowly payed me dividends over the years.
My initial problems as a child could have been simply understood, and thus society might have had an even
better Aspie to solve its assorted problems. But Alas, no, One of societies problems is that it victimizes
Aspies, (And anybody whos different, wether its racial, sexist, or merely cognicentric.)
As An Aspie, My Interests were Psychology, World Religions, World History, Sociology, Civil Engineering,
Space Exploration, Political Science, And Education.
So unlike most aspies, my feild of expertise isn't a phone book, or the sound properties of assorted metal
objects, or Tiling Iterations and styles.
My interests derived from a single simple question;
"How do I Help These silly humans See their Nonsensical Game?"
You know ? THAT Game?
The secret supersecret unsecret Game;
Gaffe matrix taboo mind tricks
and social metaprogram bricks
The lines and their meanings and all of those toy soldiers and sides,
a million propaganda warriors and their assorted lies
Pack psychology and brutism and modern technology with
still yet barbaric ethics and morality
Over the years, the Answer has become that i can't focus on the negative;
So i have to instead show that there are problems and offer up solutions.
This then requires of me to learn more about the probelms and solutions
than any mere mortal.
But I am uniquely qualified as an objective alien, sitting outside of the human
psychodynamic circus. To analyze and to filter, to find the most meaningful problem
definitions and the best most useful and most productive solutions.
I am better at this in fact than any government, any think tank, any presidential platform,
any party platform, or any human institution.
Compared to me, NASA is barbaric. I Could show us how to colonize this solar system in the next 50 years.
Compared to me, The department of Defense is an evil anachronistic childs game. I could show us how
to build a military that could stand against an invading alien Civilization, and give us the civil and social
engineering to ensure that we would never again have need to use a military against humans.
I could show us how to create an eductional system which would deliver to each high school graduate an education
equal to what is now 3 Doctorates.
I could show us how to turn the earth back into a green Garden of Eden,
rather than allowing market forces to render her a barren cross between Mars and Venus.
The question has now been for almost 20 years, not wether or not i had the answers, but wether or not
anybody would listen, and wether or not i would be given sufficient chance to stand and deliver.
I am an aspie. I do not want fame. I do not want Public Office. I do not want any relationships with the papparazzi.
I do not want to be crucified, By the Far Right, or the Far left.
What I do want is to lead an open source information resource, available to the public, drawing public support,
Which serves humanity to solve in theory as an open source think tank, the highest order and toughest problems
which confront Humanity.
It is possible through me, and by investing in this effort as a participant, To arrive at a future sociology
and a future society, Not via the course of mere evolutionary process, but by lucid and enlightened design,
by choice and by right action, through a labor of love, we may together climb slowly foreward in possible futures,
Into better quality ones with more and more problems truly resolved, and less and less for anybody to bicker or
complain about.
I allready live in two worlds. One World is as large as the collective unconscious. It is as big as Tiferet,
and as vast as the far corners that might be found using ones merkabah Car. I have visited up the tree of life
and I have seen the places mere mortals never know till after Death. I have seen the simulations in my minds
eye of whole civilizations and space faring explorations, And swam in the collective unconscious of the Metaverses
memories. I have been here; a million times. Poised on the edge of civilization at the cliff of Certain doom,
or a new set of Human Choices. One voice, crying out in the wilderness, one voice, crying out in song. One
knife, cutting the fabric of the paradigm, prometheus, returning from the center of tiferet with the fire of the Gods.
These two worlds, my inner world and the factual outer local planet earth;
The collective unconsciousness of tiferet, and the physically substative Malkut;
I juggle these two world;
And my task is to bring one to meet the other.
To open a portal through which, if we all work, we can pull out, we can fertilize, we can birth
A new direction for our civilization towards a true modernity.
What I want is an open source arists collective;
Together imagining and visualizing and thus starting the potential for creating
A new world and other worlds; Geothermal power, Cable Cars, Arcologies, Permaculture Gardens,
Starships, Robots, Nanotechnology, A functional modern Educational System, A functional modern
Legal System, A functional Modern Human Civilization.
I cannot as one person do everything. I can provide only the blueprints and the foreward facing inferences.
I will need the help of the entire population. Each person changes the world and transforms it by choosing personal evolution
for themselves. I am an Aspie. In a very real poetic sense, I am from 2000 years into your future. But you may
choose via me to manifest a new timeline, and to bring about a future which sprints through 2000 years
of social and civil evolution.
WE can together accomplish in our lifetimes what would not have otherwise been accomplished by humanity in 2000
years.
WE can even (I hope) stretch to consider the possibilities for FTL travel, And to consider exploration and Colonization
of our entire Galaxy.
The universe can be our oyster. But before we go "OUT THERE"
we have to resolve and solve and plan and think "IN HERE".
It can happen via random chaos over 2000 years,
or, it can happen via enlightenment and lucid intention in less than 50.
The choice is up to humanity collectively;
I am about to put my end on the table, to stand and deliver.
That is what this year should be about.
Omnipedia.
Artists Collective
28 Aug 2008, 11:24 am
