MADDuck wrote:
Why am I disapointed?
I look at where I am and my station in life and hate what I've become.
I never planned on living this long. I guess I burned out too soon.
Your station in life, do you mean you situation.
When you say your station in life, it makes it seem like a designated position in a social hierarchy, doesn't sound so good. Doesn't pay to compare yourself to others too much (I believe).
I tend to think happiness (ideally) is a state of mind -- not a state of having various things or different levels of achievement.
I take antidepressants - so these help me to feel happy..... but there very small things that can bring joy. I used to keep a diary and look for things each day that I could feel happy about, this seemed to help me back then.
Another way I found, is to work out a goal - and then take very small baby steps towards achieving that goal. Make it a really slow process, this might help to give you feeling of moving forward in life.
Even if it is just a visit to the library each day - or somewhere similar just to extend the number of people you see in your day.
anyway - I don't want to preach - these are things that helped me.
I am sure you are a good person.