Hi, been lurking for awhile and finally decided to post
I have never been officially diagnosed with Asperger's however from the research I have done on my own, I am pretty sure Asperger's is the case. I am 37 years old and for the vast majority of my life I have felt there was something 'wrong' with me that, for whatever reason, no one could ever really figure out and/or explain. I was also raised by an NT yet highly narcissistic, drug addict mother who, not surprisingly, was never there for me or anyone else. My father was an absent parent who I do know somewhat and I suspect is Asperger's himself, from what I do know about him (he and two of his brothers - he has another brother and a sister who are likely NT). My experience with family was never a good one and I am pretty much estranged from all of them (aside from my likely AS husband and 3 kids).
I made it through most of grade school relatively unscathed but once junior high showed up it was pretty much all over. Then the bullying, mostly from other girls, started and didn't let up for years. Junior high school was pretty much a nightmare and high school was better in that way until I figured out what would become the most familiar for me - feeling utterly and completely invisible. That has pretty much been the mainstay to this day. I am also very introverted and after all these years, not a big fan of NT people. Often times I'm not a big fan of people in general! I don't necessarily dislike people but I guess a better explanation is that I have grown tired of the interaction required with face to face friendships and the inevitable drama that seems to be common in friendships. I have a couple of friends but I find it tiring to maintain these relationships most the time, so I don't see them much. Because of this, one of the women gets irritated with me fairly often but the other one has known me since we were 10 years old and so she pretty much knows what to expect - not a lot. I find it most appealing to spend time with my husband and kids - my husband is a lot like me and two of our three kids seem to have many of our personality traits.
Anyhow, enough about me......hoping to get to know some other like-minded folks here at WP.......thanks for listening (reading).
Heather