This site has me intrigued, to say the least.
I guess this is the right forum to say some about who one is, so I'll try to do that.
My mental condition has always been debated among my family, as I am extremely intelligent when it comes to linguistics, well above average for cognitive abilities, and above average for mathematics when it comes to testing/proof of ability, yet my grades do not reflect this. For example, I thought the test pitifully, painfully easy and achieved a perfect score on the SAT on my first attempt to take it, yet my high-school GPA is something like a 1.5 due to the amount of homework I didn't do. Whenever I was asked as to why I didn't complete those assignments, I answered with all honesty that I had no idea. I had no cruel intentions in not finishing those tasks assigned to me, I loved doing the work, but for some reason or another I didn't do it. Anyway, last year I was diagnosed with ADHD, and I am on medication to treat those symptoms, and this is working to some degree, yet I still notice some oddities about myself that this treatment isn't really fixing, yet seem to correlate to this diagnosis.
I have no idea how to act in situations of human contact. This problem is accentuated tenfold when this interaction involves someone in whom I have some form of a romantic interest, for I lose my 'shield' (if you will) that I have developed. This 'shield' is that I have convinced myself not to care what others think, (even though I still consciously do, I just suppress the annoyance) and to do this in the most polite way possible (so whatever their perception is, it is most likely good.) Since I don't have this protective barrier, I tend to stumble over my speech much more, afterthought is increased, and thus I become quiet.
I found out about AS a few months ago, and I felt scared (I still do, to be honest, that is why I am registering with these forums, so I can un-justify my fears by talking to those that are knowledgeable on this subject.) Quite a few of the symptoms of AS applied to me when I read about it first, so I decided to start a log of my daily activities, feelings, thoughts (eventually needed its own book, ) annoyances and otherwise. This journal seemed to further show some degree of correlation. I am 18 and I am still in high-school, so I don't have the ability to get tested, nor do I agree with self-diagnosis, so I want more information.
Anyway, I am joining this forum to learn as much as I can about this. I thoroughly enjoy helping people, so any comfort I can give to those that are depressed, downtrodden or likewise would be great. Thanks for reading this, sorry that it is long.
~Mikey