Hello fellow aspie friends!

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I've been visiting this website every once in a while, but I figured I ought to go ahead and join.

Anyways, my name is Michael and I'm 19 years old. I was diagnosed within the upper range of AS in the 3rd grade, at the same university that I now attend.

I took the aspie test and I scored a 177 (NT was 32 / 200).

I really like listening to music. I can generally tolerate most kinds of music except for country. Though, by far my favorite genre is Rock.

Hobbies include but hopefully aren't actually limited to: Making PC's, software programming, economics (I'm exploring this area), reading (mainly educational), meditation, gaming, cooking, acting, anime, karate, and watching TV (mainly educational).

My favorite hobby is meditation.

I've always, ALWAYS, been such a perfectionist. I've always made excuses for being a perfectionist, saying that the discipline of trying to be perfect all the time only gets me closer faster. The main reason I try to be perfect in my work is because I make SO MANY careless mistakes! I do some of the stupidest things like misreading questions and messing up math in my head. I do those kind of mistakes a lot, and it really keeps my potential from showing. On that note, I really don't mind making a mistake that couldn't be helped. If I don't know how to do something, then I just don't. But knowing how to do something, yet not communicating that knowledge properly really irks me (It's not just academia, I get frustrated when I can't complete a simple task, like moving my hand/arm around a cup full of coffee, or having a string of typing errors).

I've also had anger management issues, which mainly stemmed from my perfectionism. Ever since I can remember, I'd do things like punish a particular body part that didn't seem to function as I commanded (hitting a hand that doesn't let go of something fast enough when I move my arm, hitting my head when I can't get out of a mental fog, sensory overload, etc.). But, of course I didn't approve of this behavior. I really disliked physically punishing myself, because it could potentially cause more harm than good - nullifying the effect.

And, there's my executive dysfunction, which I realized recently after matching up my symptoms with what was cited on numerous reports I read. But those symptoms (multitasking, motor skills, speaking coherently, attending to simple but necessary tasks, writing essays, etc.) seem to match up with AS pretty well, anyway (sometimes I say I could have 30-50 extra IQ points if I could think a bit more clearly when it comes to these things). I really am not sure what my IQ is. When I was in the 3rd grade, I scored 105 on an official examination. Though, I was probably still taking Efalex then. I actually felt more competent when I got off of Efalex. I did an Internet IQ test a couple of years ago, and I scored a 137 IIRC. I hear most IQ tests are relatively accurate, so I dunno. It would be cool to be a genius, though.

It is because of the doom and gloom above, that meditation is my favorite hobby. I've broken new ground with meditation. I've read about the brain's ability to rewire itself, and meditation is the fast track to doing that, because it enables access to the subconscious mind. I started out meditating ten to thirty minutes a day. There was a slight improvement in my personality, though I was still socially awkward and the above situations were still out of control. This past week, I decided to kick meditation into a higher gear. I now meditate for three to five hours a day, or longer, if I can. It is in this stillness that I become who I seek to be - not limited by sensory overload or any other parts of my mind, such as memories or thoughts, that seek to dominate my consciousness. Working out my goals in conquering the things that hold me back is much simpler when I'm the master of my mind. By the time college started next week, I was almost a totally different person. I still have a ways to go, because I can't maintain myself for long without meditating before meeting people. But, hopefully these changes will become permanent, and will build upon improvement of my base character.

Though, in my meditation, I've felt God's presence as well. At times, I have reached a point in my meditation where absolutely nothing else matters any more. I no longer think in words, I no longer focus on my goals, I just... exist. I feel my way through my mind. At those times, as though I were a baby gasping for his/her first breath, I'd ask to feel God's love. And tears of an absolute joy would stream forth from my eyes... It is an understatement to say that crying is atypical of me. I only remember crying twice, and both were from a sensation of intolerable pain. But feeling God's love brings far more tears than pain. I mention these touching experiences, because I believe it is necessary to know God to know the power each of us contains. We have a right to be who we want to be, and I see no reason why I have to live a life as somebody else. Sure, I'm an aspie and I always will be an asipe - and I am proud to be an aspie. But when I see myself for who I really am, I will not be held back by what I'm not. Nobody, NT or AS, should have to deal with being who they're not. It's not going to happen over night like a switch, but it will happen as fast as you let it. Take some time to discover who you really are, and you will be much happier and fulfilled person.

Well, that's my story and my $.02 .

Welcome Michael^^

Welcome to WP!

Nice to meet you, Michael.

Welcome aboard Wrong Planet, Michael.

Nice to meet you all!

I tried uploading an avatar that was about 15.9KB and 67 x 107 png file. My avatar isn't displaying on the forums or in my profile page. On the add birthday page, though, I have an option to delete my so far non-existent avatar.

Welcome to WP.


The avatar... although some things report a file size as "15.9KB", they should strictly say ""15.9KiB", because they are showing the binary-ish multiplier 1,024, rather than the decimal 1,000. Hence "15.9KB" might mean 15.9 *1024 = 16,282 bytes, say, which is over the limit. I think the WP page really means 16,000 bytes (I think I tried it out once, just to see).

Welcome to WP, its a nice atmosphere here so I'm sure you'll make plenty of friends here.

To WrongPlanet!! !

Ah, now my avatar works. In doing so, I set it to grayscale so I could maximize its size without cropping or stretching. I knew the picture seemed larger than it should have been. Was ever so slightly green-tinted.