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Hi,
This will be my second post on the forum and i just wanted to introduce myself
I am a 17 year old female from the UK (north lincolnshire if anyone lives nearby!). I am also a self-diagnosed aspie. This has only been for about the last 18 months, before then i just assumed i was an oddbod n that i would grow out of it. About 2 years ago I read a book called "the curious incident of the dog in the night-time, this started me on the rather difficult path of finding out whether i had a condition that i could relate my problems to, or not. My mum chose to think i didnt, that i was just difficult and that there was nothing "wrong with me". I can understand this attitude, she loves me and doesn't want to think that i might be different to other children. This is ok with me. I have a boyfriend who supports me and i am satisfied.

I find people touching my head highly unpleasant, to the extent that i will actually hurt someone if they don't stop immediately. If i get very stressed i cant bear to be touched at all and need alone time to wind down, are there lots of other people like this?

I also struggle feeling the appropriate emotions at the right times, when my grandma died (she brought me up from the age of 2 with my parents) 2 years ago, i never really cried until i saw her body and this was more because i was scared than anything else, yet when our dog died i was inconsolable! My mum especially was unhappy about this, once or twice she passed comment about how i never cried when my grandma died. This hurt me, but i still never cried. I would be really interested to hear other people's experiences with this please.

I am also very temperature sensitive and have the fan on throughout winter as i cant stand being warm in bed.

I always had problems making friends and was bullied extensively untill i reached college.

If something is out of its set or lost, i get quite upset, i had to go out and buy a replacement pair of underwear the other day because i couldn't find a specific pair and it was upsetting me so much!

There are lots of other little things that i do or don't do and I dont' know if these things indicate that i have aspergers syndrome or not, but with the encouragement of my boyfriend i have decided to try and find out. So i am posting on here to see what other people think!
And comments would be greatly appreciated!
Thankyou very much
Rach

I've never really gotten the whole grief thing myself. Everyone thought I was in some kind of denial when my grandfather died, but I was really like "Oh well, what are you gonna do". Over the years I learned to fake it pretty well, although I don't hang around too long when we have funerals lest I slip up and get busted being "insensitive". Even now, my wife and daughter are the only ones for whom I can imagine feeling any sort of loss.

Yup, my father still thinks im probably in denial, and i haven't really grieved for my dead mother. But it never bothered me. It did have some psychological effect, i have no illusions about that. But on the night she died, even then i found it funny that twice in a period of like 5 minutes i had the thought, "How the hell are we gonna explain this to mom- err... nm duh hehe" I still find that really funny. And the only thing that really bothered me about her death was there was this story that i was only gonna hear once her and her brother we together to tell it, and i asked her brother but he does know so i'm like nooooooooooo!

But on another matter, i wanna tell you that you really impress me how you are behaving with your mother, using the support of your boyfriend to allow her to think what makes her happy.

Personally i dont have anyone i can confide in regularly besides my father so i'm stuck in a nasty little struggle that he wants to believe im normal, and i want him to be happy and accept me, but i know he just does not possess the emotional strength to do that, but i still resent it. Crap like that. But if i had that kind of support, i'd be doing what you're doing or trying to.

And besides all of that. Ello ^_^ welcome to wrong planet.
*pounces you and bites you*
-roughly means "I like you"

Hi Rach,
I fully understand your lack of empathy and emotion over the death of your grandma. My father passed away suddenly some years ago, and my mother was rendered almost incapable with grief. I remember thinking that I should be feeling something, but I didn’t. All I could think of was “So, what happens now?”. As an only child, I had to make all of the arrangements and settle my late father’s affairs, as there was no-one else around to do that. A sense of detachment is useful in such circumstances, as there is so much to do. However, I did find the funeral difficult as I thought that I was the only one there not showing enough emotion. No-one mentioned it – I suspect that they were too polite to do so. I’ve never learned to fake personal emotions, although I can fake the necessary emotions at work.
Anyway, hope you enjoy your stay. There are so many interesting people on this site and I’ve learned so much from their posts.

I have yet to have a major family member die, but I cryed like crazy when one of my dogs died. Just remembering it makes me sad, because he was an amazingly awesome dog. Oddly enough, I could care less if the remaining two died, I feel no emotional attachment to them. I'm weird like that, it's just the way I am.

Oh, and welcome to WP! So you're the perosn who contacted me on MSN who I didn't recognize! Sorry about that, I don't read greeting threads that often.

Hi Rach, greetings......

I've only lost one family member, grandmother in car accident. I was 13.

I was very upset and angry at first, but it passed quickly.
I got to take all the calls from family & friends to explain what happened. I got complimented on how well I held myself together.... I had finally done something right!

A couple of friends have asked me If I'd cry at their funeral.....I lied and said yes.

Now, I get upset and teary eye'd at the mere thought of loosing my cat. Her death will be devastating to me.