I'm newly registered but haven't been diagnosed...

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I learned about this site by reading sites about Asperger's Syndrome; my husband had been researching it and thought I had some symptoms. What really convinced me was reading posts that kept mentioning "NT's": I didn't know what that stood for so I Googled it. Well, the website for the "International Study of Neurotypical Personality" came up, I read almost everything and [b]thought it was real[/b]. I finally noticed the little line at the top of the home page explaining that the site was a parody, and if you thought it credible you either couldn't understand English or YOU [i]WERE AUTISTIC.[/i] I admit this initially freaked me out, but the more I reflected on it, my past, and mainly the feeling I've had all my life that I must belong in another dimension, due to my inability to socialize...I know you've all been through it, I make a comment or observation and the person I'm speaking to doesn't respond & gives me a strange look; or someone says something and I give what I consider an appropriate reply and the conversation stops there.
I know I'm an intelligent, kind person-not trying to brag, but continually confused and embarrassed because I JUST DON'T GET IT. I always feel totally out of the loop, always misinterpreting people's motives and actions towards me, to the point where I've become paranoid; when I was in school, no matter at what level, and now at my new job, I just can't comprehend what's going through others' heads and what the social organization of the place is, except the fact I'm always the official pariah.
***I also wanted to bring up the fact that I'm diagnosed with major depressive disorder, which I've always accepted because I AM often depressed, to the point of being debilitated, and now I'm on [b]4 [/b]different kinds of psychotropic drugs, had ECT, been committed...now I'm wondering if this all the result of the lack of diagnosis of a condition on the Autistic spectrum; and maybe I don't have all these personality disorders Dr.s say I have, and maybe all my "emotional problems" stem from this situation.***

Welcome to WP!

Hey how are you?

Not too well...I guess i misinterpreted something again, thought I'd get more replies. Another group of people who dislike me, another disappointment...this was a mistake, I haven't been "officially" diagnosed; i just am a mutant social misfit freak of nature

Welcome, welcome

Welcome to WrongPlanet. You sound like me.

Most likely. They're all quacks and have no idea what they're doing. You are the world's foremost authority on you. If you keep reading all the stuff and it makes sense, you are probably an Aspie.

Don't suddenly stop taking those drugs. With a lot of them, you need to quit gradually. But do consider ditching them. If you don't know whether they are helping or not, they are probably not. They are probably making you worse. And they are extremely dangerous.

Not at all. It's just that we're scattered all over the world and are on different schedules. Some Aspies even have lives (though not me). Just give 'em a little time. They'll get here.

By the way, does the phrase "Wactose Intolerant" instantly make sense to you? Do you feel a compulsion to put it on a T-shirt or desktop or something? Just wondering.

Hey, go to a board certified psychiatrist or better yet a neuropsychiatrist who specializes in spectrum disorders. That's what I did and it's the best way to get a reliable diagnosis.

oh and welcome.. I'm new too. I've only been posting for about a week, although I post a lot.

Welcome to Wrong Planet!

You managed to put that into words extremely well. At least as far as my own Aspergers experience goes, I couldn't have said it better myself. Even your followup comment

I've been on a few meds, and have reduced myself down to just what I absolutely need. Its harder than being medicated to the gills, but its more realistic.

Not making much sense today, hope you're doing better

depression would be pretty normal in unknown AS, welcome to the site. it must be both a shock and a relief. you look like a really pretty bob dylan/judy davis in your photo!

my guess IS Dylan

welcome Lizzard! many a chameleon-type here
(me a salmon-pink variety)

o and also bear in mind this is not chat, not only
do we need time to read all the posting with due care
it takes more time than chat to actually sit down
and think before you compose a sensible response

&eventhenstillFail-inexplicably/[email protected]

Welcome, Lizzard, to the Wrong Planet community.

Thanks so much to everyone for your acknowledgments - I feel better, more accepted. Even people like us usually don't spend 24/7 at this site, I was just in a particularly foul mood and being petulant. I'd like to get to know so many members here.
Regarding my dr.- he is a neuropsychiatrist, but he's never mentioned AS; then again, I haven't been seeing him that long. I'm just afraid he'll give me that condescending smile and say I'm attempting to excuse my social shortcomings by this self-diagnosis; I have X, 8, and q, but not anything on the spectrum...
I can't stand psychiatrists! But I hate going through the process of finding a new one, because then I have 50 minutes to recite my life story, when my symptoms started to appear, which meds I've been on (in my case, which ones have I not been on?), blah, blah. The one I'm going to presently is pretty nice, but he never suggests anything; I'll ask a question, he gives me this little smile and say ,"What do you think?". I don't know, dickhead, that's what I'm paying you $110 per 30 minutes for!
But I admit I'm really afraid of the prospect of getting off all these meds; I'll take forever to taper off from them, and I'll feel like crap and be irritable the whole time-that will really help make me popular at my new job (if you haven't read one of my earlier whines, I've become the office pariah within the 2 months I've worked there).
Sorry for the rant.
By the way, that IS a photo of Bob Dylan, not me. I find his music incredible, and that particular shot of him just captures my state of mind in a visual way.

Welcome!

welcome Diagnosis? my view is if you function well in society and have no issues that need addressing then why bother? I hate the way society likes people to fit into categories and labels them etc etc...
Unless the person has issues and really needs a diagnosis I think it is ok not to be diagnosed