Evilkelsits wrote:
HI everyone I'm Kelly kels aka Kels.
and I'm new to this type of thing, and I get unsure what to say to these sites,
about who I am and what I do, so here goes.
So yes, I'm Kels, and I'm currently a student doing a cultural studies degree which mixes history,
english literature, socialogy and english language.
I was on a science degree but I quit because of reasons I don't want to go into.
My main interests include, Science, art, Literature, writing, anime, music, reading, drawing, painting, languages, and learning new things.
As far as I'm concerned, learning everything and anything you can is a great thing,
and I pretty much have a wide spectrum of interests
Which means I rule at general knowledge, but don't ask me any maths questions because maths is definately not my forte.
I was diagnosed with aspergers at a pretty late age, because I always used to keep myself to myself,
and also I didn't have the best of childhoods, not something I want to go into.
So they can't do much for me except help me cope with my behavoirs.
Currently I'm doing CBT (cognative behavoiral theapy) with a counsellor who see's me once a week.
which helps me with my paranoia's, my worries, my obsessions, my lack of sleep, and the general frustration of not knowing how to act in social situations.
I'm actually in a low mood today, since one of my lecturers made me do a seminar today and tried to explain to her aspergers was the reason I looked down at the floor and not at the class and this was also the reason I freaked out during my presentation, but she just told me, in a nice way though, to deal with it, and it's so hard to explain that I just can't and I'm just like this through no fault of my own and since she's an older generation she doesn't understand.
I would do anything to be able to look people in the eye when I talk and make friends a lot more easier, and people not think I'm rude or overly shy, but I'm not.
I just can't cope with groups of people all focused on me.
I'm not ignorant. Just really nervous and frustrated and awkward and I would like for once for this not to get in my way.
because it got me a lower mark than I should've gotten in the seminar. and I'm not happy, I passed, but that's not the point.
Hey there. You don't have to feel ashamed about your behaviors, childhood, or personal problems here. Most of us here have been through or are currently going through a lot of the same things, so not only can you be sure you won't be judged, you might actually find a lot of people who can relate to you or even help you in some ways with the things you're dealing with. Personally, I can relate on just about everything you've said about yourself.
I like your interests, too. It's rare to find somebody who likes both science and writing. Learning everything about everything is definitely a great way to go.
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