Hello all.
I am 35 year old guy from a "blended" family. I've always been a loner. I never had a large group of friends. I never went to parties in high school (probably because I was never invited to any). I never had a girl friend in high school, but I was the "safe guy friend" alot. I started college in a small liberal arts school (because college is the thing to do in my "family" ) and dropped out because I was bored. I hate dating, I hate socializing, I don't want to be married or have children of my own. But, it would be nice have someone to share my life with (at least part of the time).
I have found myself drifting especially the last couple of years. I slugged it out in sales for the better part of 15 years. Basically hated it. I could scrape out a living, but was never a high achiever doing it. I've always been good with computer hardware and technical product knowledge (usually the "go to" guy on my sales team.) The most fun I had was working in a call center doing tier 2 tech support almost 10 years ago. I would like to get myself back into school and back into an IT line of work.
Through an annoying chain of events I'm currently living with my grandparents in rural Kentucky. It has been very difficult because where I am is so far removed from who I feel I am. There isn't much in the way of technology, not much in the way of interaction with others. The grandfolks are basically good people, but they are so far removed from modern technology and life I feel I either can't talk to them or have to use "baby talk" when I do.
Someone suggested to them that I may have Asperger's. After a couple of weeks of doing research, and basically talking about me behind my back to the rest of the family , they got up the nerve to talk to me. I met with a therapist they know last week and she diagnosed me with Asperger's. I've been trolling around the web, including here, for info on it. I find myself pointing at the screen saying, "Yeah, that sounds familiar" alot. As far as therapy or face-to-face support groups I'm still looking and taking it a step at a time. I am taking the MMPI tommorrow- I forget why. I was so excited after the first meeting with the therapist I forgot what exactly comes next.
So, that's me. I guess this intro is kinda long, sorry if I lost anybody, but those are the highlights my brain monster is screaming to share. The intro is long, but the brain will be quiet for now.