Hello I am new...

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Joined: 16 May 2009
Age: 32
Gender: Male
Posts: 5
Location: Russia, Izhevsk

18 May 2009, 4:18 pm

Hello, I am new, but I am not sure I will be here for a long time... all my activity can end up here in this topic or maybe this and 2-3 others but this is the most attractive forum for me since I have my Internet connection. 2 years ago I dreamed of it as of a facility to find friends, people who think the same way, partners to join me in a take-over-the-world campaign... maybe I don't have Asperger's, I am just a typical outcast, like Dr. Drakken in one cartoon... he also hated sports lesson)... 36 points in the test. Well, no change. Couldn't locate a friend, little amount of contacts in Icq, constantly talking to myself - people just don't have time on me .
If I'm not mistaking, this branch of the forum is a place where I can tell about me... my interest in 'world-capturing' is a one of constructing an organisation, defended from the outer world... a community to feel safe in... sorry for so many references, I mean something like Dharma Initiative... and mentioning it is just a way to cut off people who have a bias and would blame me (implicitly, according to their expectations of what a person should be) in egocentrism, immaturity and 'complexes' - well, I provide myself to the world on 'as is' basis. I am interested in technologies to construct a planetary 'matrix'... well, one of the opportunities of such system is that we could automatically bring up neuro-untypical people... a system with random factors and chaos being minimized, with a perfect place for everyone, like in Brave New World but virtual... well, I haven't read it. I don't read a lot and lost all my brain-developing interests, I used to write programs in Delphi now I just talk with myself (with imaginary known/unknown people, not out loud), play Sega games, do nothing, and roam in the Internet... well, not roam, but do page-refreshing on 2-3 places.
I am 17, from Russia. Psychotypes: INTP, ILE. ICQ#: 359-768-442. No MSN. very glad to receive messages, from anyone from here. But if I will be able to find friends etc. not only talk... that would be good... but... even now I fear that category is too closed. And if someone would be so kind to give advice how to start and how and where to seek... or other... I would be grateful.