End of school is the end of the line?
I'm in Year 11, and there's only a few weeks to go before my exams, but there's a serious problem. My schoolmates. They keep making stupid noises and distracting me from my work, and telling me what I can and can't do. They also keep telling me I won't behave properly at college, which downright puts me off getting a future at all, and I think that's their goal: to stop me from getting a life. I should never have gone to suffer in this prison that dares call itself a school. Should have gone to Holnley High School instead, but my dad said I should go to Rastrick Independent. Well I definitely won't be independent by the time I've left, 'cause I'll be solely dependent on the local money lender and making ends meet for the rest of my life. And half the teachers and staff don't care for me, including the headteacher, who looks disturbingly like Maggie Thatcher, and I'd be too nervous to talk to anyone, if I could. FML forever.
Also, I want to do software programming at college (if I ever do get there), but since there's no ICT teacher to watch over the lessons most of the time, I can say goodbye to that GCSE, and my future. I just wish my life was better... I'll be living in a council house for sure...
I am from the US, so I can't give you advice on how to work your education system, but I will tell you, don't give up on your education just because the people in your school are jerks. Try to find an isolated, quiet place where you can study when you're not in class. You have more control over your future than your idiotic schoolmates do.
Plus, even it you don't go to college, you can still study software programming. Lots of programmers teach themselves using books, tutorials, or help forums on the internet.
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Also, I want to do software programming at college (if I ever do get there), but since there's no ICT teacher to watch over the lessons most of the time, I can say goodbye to that GCSE, and my future. I just wish my life was better...


I know how you feel. I cannot solve this problem for you, but I wish I could.
Try not to go down the whole "woe is me" route, though. How you handle this really is your call. You COULD try the attempted suicide thing like I did, but that's NOT a good move. At all. It might seem odd to hear at first, but you really can change your own attitude.
Try finding new people to connect with in your area that understand you a little better. This means putting a smile on your face (force it if you have to) and introducing yourself to people that might not identify with you, but sometimes one gets lucky enough to get one of those amazing, life-changing teachers or mentors. Personally, I think you need more people to open up to, and those people are not us because we can't see you or actually connect with you in person. You need someone to look you in the eye and tell you what life is really like, but is willing to emotionally support you when you really need the help.
Just having one person like that can make a world of difference.
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"Sex, streams, friends accessing private members... Either I am just discovering unintentional innuendo or Stroustrup is a pervert."
But worse still, I never really do any work in school due to lack of self-motivation. And it's coming up to my results, and since I've done next to nothing, I can only hope for a future of trying to make ends meet forever. What I think I need is someone to open up to, and to convey and express myself to. But I do have one, but I only ever see her once every few months, which isn't good. I'll have to find someone else... In the mean time, I want to find something I can get on with in my own time, that will contribute to my GCSEs, like a small ICT project or something... but for now, it seems I'll be depressed for some time until I can do something about my already crappy life...
So you have knowingly and willingly done nothing about your state, and you blame others for that?
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"Sex, streams, friends accessing private members... Either I am just discovering unintentional innuendo or Stroustrup is a pervert."

Join some teams/clubs, get a job
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