01 Jul 2019, 7:32 am
...I don't think the lump sum is all that much. It might amount to what would be, if I was not getting SSDI, enough to live on for - less than a year, perhaps, if I got a decent studio/one-room/- similar apartment/room* & also got a decent bed, lights, a chair or two and a surface,. other ' living things ", including a reftigerator microwave cookinv surface - and some kind of TV/DVD/audio.
*-I could live with " a room.of my own " that is not a literal seperate apartment but I'd seperate...and least had its own sink & toilet, a half-bathtoom, even if s full one, with a shower, was down the hall - and the toilet would need at least some degree of bars/handicapped suitability - as would the place in general 
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
03 Jul 2019, 6:18 am
...I tend to be rather tired - Not having a place of my own I can't sleep on my own schedule 
. There's this charity free lunch meal - fairly - near me that I used to go to very much - Now, frankly, the, may e 8-1/ blocks to.it is a bit of a long walk - at least with a bit uphill and a fair leg fairly strongly downhill on a stretch of street where fairly fast card go by and I got slightly brushed by a car s little ago - at least as late as the time tendd to be if I leave where zI am at 12:15-1#:30-ish - I can generally get there, if I push, by sometime after 2, and they close at 2:30 - but I think I am.overly straining myself in walking that fast that far but the time demands it.
Getting going eaier J might not be straining.my slow-walking, CHF-affected self do but I am - briefly, my screwed-up sleep schedule gets me leaving late.
I mentioned over at that ' Where Do I Go? " line that warning about, in the most pessimistic interpretation, of me possibly not having long to live if my kidneys get worse - Or, have much dailydis, which I guess would keep me alive but rather tie me down. I thought after that that, if in a more pessimisy interpretation, I had little time to live...I'd at least want to get some months of reading and watching movies and trying to write if I can somehow be taught how to write for savibility on a computer + as I've never been able to be taught to be.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
03 Jul 2019, 8:38 am
03 Jul 2019, 10:16 pm
...I meant " get there after 1, they close at 1:30 ", above.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
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04 Jul 2019, 11:55 am
*-I could live with " a room.of my own " that is not a literal seperate apartment but I'd seperate...and least had its own sink & toilet, a half-bathtoom, even if s full one, with a shower, was down the hall - and the toilet would need at least some degree of bars/handicapped suitability - as would the place in general
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at different times I have dived into screenwriting
have heard advice which recommends starting with a premise in which a character wants something badly and has a hard time getting it,
and wing it from there, and if the main character changes in what they want, that’s arc of character and is a good thing. If it doesn’t, then you have a more straightforward story, and that sometimes plays to strength, too.
the advice to to write with barefoot irreverence and embrace your mistakes!
Maybe. I have not been outstandingly successful with it, would like to just have more fun with it for the time being.
04 Jul 2019, 5:09 pm
*-I could live with " a room.of my own " that is not a literal seperate apartment but I'd seperate...and least had its own sink & toilet, a half-bathtoom, even if s full one, with a shower, was down the hall - and the toilet would need at least some degree of bars/handicapped suitability - as would the place in general
....I'd need a decent computer/Internet, of course. And I'd like a good, fairly large in A library, one, like I've never had
. I want at least part of it to get natural sun when I wnnt it - And curtains/whatever to make it dark when I want that. I'd like somewhere nearby that you could sit in the sun when it's suitable snd someahere you could lie/sit in the grass when it's suitable - which would require some kind of pole/rock within reach, really, to get myself up from a ground position unsided, given my crippledness .As I said, I don't think the lump sum could support this completely alone for long. The most pessimistic interpretation of my kidney problems says I may not have long to live (Or, if I live longer I would be tied to I suppose quite frequent dialysis.) - when aI heard that, I thought, " well, get some last months out of that money, anyway, even if it's not enough for longer life ".
.I have taken a CBD and THC 50/50 pot gummi. My eyes are seeing stronger colors - not a 1960s ' trip "/psychedelic movie sequence, just stronger lighting/brighter-looking. My eyes to tend to be quite weak, finding much inside lighting not really enough to read something not a lighted s teen, or at least a strain
. It's hard for me, in the shelter or on the street, to find a comfortable position to sit down and read - or just plain sitting down .————
at different times I have dived into screenwriting
have heard advice which recommends starting with a premise in which a character wants something badly and has a hard time getting it,
and wing it from there, and if the main character changes in what they want, that’s arc of character and is a good thing. If it doesn’t, then you have a more straightforward story, and that sometimes plays to strength, too.
the advice to to write with barefoot irreverence and embrace your mistakes!
Maybe. I have not been outstandingly successful with it, would like to just have more fun with it for the time being.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
06 Jul 2019, 11:49 pm
...I had more stolen to-day , mostly from a, IIRC, previously never-stolen place - the shelf in the large public library where you leave stuff while you do the bathroom - maybe I'm now seeming old and.det-uponable by the stronger in the pack, no? .
I cough again and again . Sometimes it's really body-shaking. I get asked if I used to be a smoker - I never smoked tobacco in my whole entire life.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
07 Jul 2019, 3:55 pm
...I had as much as $105 or so.stolen from me - I'm not sure. It was in my jacket, which I keep on basically at all times except when I'm in the shelter resting at which time I take it off and put in under the mattress in my cot with my money and wallet/stuff still in it : so the thrift would have to have gone for my jacket underneath the cot when I was away from the cot in the bathroom or something and taken out of the cot's bottom and the $25 it so that was in the outer side pocket and the $80 or so that was in the inside pocket both taken out - Which would have required some noticeable standing around .
What can I do ?
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
07 Jul 2019, 4:58 pm
08 Jul 2019, 4:53 am
...I lost a draft
I was going to report it just to say to you I did it, but I didn't . I tend to think at best I'd get some sy lathy but nothing se : or just a " Well, it was 't in my shift " or such - Or possibly even if not actively backing up the theft, chuckling at if, even encouraging it by staff. Perhaps.
Now I feel..Ihave to keep.the jacket on at all times. I bad saved some money .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
08 Jul 2019, 5:17 am
08 Jul 2019, 5:30 am
...I think my wallet, cards, are safer in an inside jacket pocket.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
08 Jul 2019, 7:13 am
08 Jul 2019, 8:19 am
08 Jul 2019, 9:53 pm
08 Jul 2019, 10:55 pm
...The money would've been, I'm sure, stolen from the jacket when I was not wearing it, when it was under my cot's mattress...Perhaps when I was in the john .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
