Aspies and autists, what was high school like for you?

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In high school I remember having the highs and lows of being an autistic student in special education and trying to fit in with my peers. I also had to deal with bullying at times, but I never compel myself to take my own life because it would be better after high school. I remember feeling taken advantage of when I was in tenth grade because a fellow classmate of mine asked me to go and get her some lunch when she go and get lunch herself if I weren't autistic and having the courage to say no to her if she asks me.

Did you have any friends?

Although I did interact with other students who did not mind having me around and whom I acquianted with, I never had a true friend to hang out of high school because I did not want to disclose my autism and alienate them with my odd behavior, and I decided its not worth the time. I did have one person who is the closest thing I have to a friend because we shared similar interests in video games and anime. We would've hang out with each other all the time if I were a NT.

Did you sit alone at lunch?

Sometimes I sat alone at lunch by myself, but most of the time I sat with other people who I knew and did not knew.

In 9th grade I remember the time trying to sit with a group of slightly nerdy students, and one time they rejected me when they did not want to see me trying to squirt milk out of my nose when I tried to be funny and not to alienate them.

I also remember hanging around with a group of goth/emo/punk students and my interactions with them are better than the ones I sat with in my 9th grade year. I remember a red head girl who I hold a bitter resentment to and see her as a b*tch. Not to mention she has bad, yellowing teeth too. I remember her words that led me to give up on hanging out with them when she told me that not everyone would like me, and I got the message from her, although I hate her personally for that and it made me feel bitter after that.

If you did have friends, are you still friends with those people?

I sent them friend requests on MySpace and Facebook to keep in touch. Some accepted my requests because I see them as true friends, and some did not accept my requests because I knew that person is going to reject my request becuase they think of me as a stalker when they just knew me. I decided not to send them anymore requests because it's not worth it. I interact with them on those social websites at times to ask how they are doing with their lives after high school.

If not, then why?

I never been bothered to ask to hang out with them because they are busy with their lives after high school such as college, military, and employment. I decided not to butt in because I learned to respect their private lives and got my own life to take care of.

Were you ever invited to places?

Nope, I never had one friend to invite me because I knew that there would be bad company that would get me in trouble and take advantage of my social naivete. Not to mention that they would ditch me.

Did you like your teachers?

I had a French teacher who I can see as the person that can understand me a lot more than the other teachers. My interactions with the other teachers I have in high school are mostly positive, such as my 9th grade Integrated Science teacher and my English I teacher. I remember a teacher who I have a slight dislike to is a reading teacher to a class of ESOL students, and I remember her pompous attitude when she told me and my friend to go back down stairs when we are doing nothing wrong and got nothing better to do downstairs with the other students.

Did you get good grades?

Early on in my freshman year I have good grades such as A's and B's with a dash of C's and occassional D's and F's, but later on my high school career I still got good grades, but a few more bad grades because I see the work I was assigned to do is too boring, too overwhelming, and too complex to comprehend. I also had to go to a credit lab in my senior year to make up my two credits, Earth Space Science and English 3 because I failed those classes in my 11th grade year.

What was your graduation ceremony night like?

I attended my graduation class of 2010 and I feel relieved that high school is over for me, and I remember thinking what would high school be like if I did not have an autism spectrum disorder.

I remember attending a ceremony before my scheduled graduation at a church where I met my fellow high school peers and I also reunited with high school peers whom I knew in middle school in the school district/county where I live, and I see they drastically changed since the 4-6 years back when we last saw each other.

High school was pretty harsh, I was bullied since primary school, assaulted verbally and physically, ridiculed constantly and for a while I developed an irrational fear of eating in public(which sucks because I am ,and always have been bloody lanky) can't say I wasn't asking for it half of the time, I've had waist long hair for about as long as I can remember(ya, I'm a guy) I own 2 pairs of jeans, the rest of my wardrobe are brightly coloured woven cotton or hemp clothes and, of course, I have AS. Now I'm in "A" levels(further education between school and uni for any non-English) and since all of the people who bullied me through school are either repeating their final year or dissipated into working class society life is pretty good ATM.

Did you have any friends?
Yup. I feel like I was really lucky in my early high school years because I had a pack of high school NT friends who were really cool, and I was simply that quieter friend with similar values that they happened to like. I honestly felt really happy to be part of their group. Plus, I had three friends that I knew since middle school and one of them was the one person I hung out with the most in high school because we were both socially awkward and had a similar interest in furthering our education.

But although I did have friends, I never developed a close relationship with any of them. I was simply part of their group--someone to hang out with in a sea of cliques and strangers. I almost never disclosed things that were too private or uncomfortable to talk about. Even my best friend is emotionally distant so we kinda found our places with each other.

Did you sit alone at lunch?
I usually did not eat lunch alone. I was either with my best friend or hanging out in the school library during the duration of the lunch period.

If you did have friends, are you still friends with those people? If not, then why?
I've lost a lot of acquaintances due to some...problems in high school, and dropped out of contact with my pack of friends in high school, but I still continue to remain somewhat in contact with my best friend.

Were you ever invited to places?
Yes.

Did you like your teachers?
A lot of my teachers liked me (since I seemed like the nice, studious type), but there were a couple that thought I was difficult because of my awkward/non-existent communication skills.

Did you get good grades?
A decent 3.5 GPA.

What was your graduation ceremony night like?
I finally told the guy I liked that I liked him (just so I can get over the fact that I can never have him) and thanked another friend that unknowingly helped me during a really dark time in my life in my Junior year with his jokes and light-heartedness in class... Other than that, I want to bed that night feeling extremely happy that high school was over...

Fine. I chilled out in 6th year and started going to parties. Always had lots of friends. Everyone was cool. Was a nice middle class village which probably helped a lot.