Middle School-- was it bad?

Post Reply New Topic

hiiiiiiiiii
dear friend's i read your comment's and post's they are nice and effective but i want to know more about something if you tell me some more imfo. or data about this it's very nice to me and thank's a lot de

Middle school pretty much destroyed any confidence and self-esteem in myself. Because this was way back in the day when even the teachers were clueless about AS, I was being criticized about every little thing.

I know we all like to say that our middle school experience was worse than others...but I say mine was ten times worse. I attended two different Catholic schools (one in 7th grade one in 8th) but they were both structured the same...two classes per grade of around 30 students total. The worse thing about being in a grade with only 30 students...is that you're forced to do everything with only those 30 students! We were forced more often than not to mingle as one big clique. A small class meant less chance of finding people who will actually like you (or should I say as an aspie, actually put up with you).

I didn't have the good fortune of escaping to the library during lunch. We all had to be herded in the same fashion from class to class as elementary school students. One kid at my 7th grade school put me through the worse hell.

That meant of course we had recess like the elementary students which made it even worse. I ask the lunch supervisor once if I could have lunch by myself on the bench that was in the cafeteria room and she refused. P.E. classes consisted of nothing but kickball in one Catholic School and volleyball in the other (my two worst sports).

Needless to say my Catholic school experience became the first time in my life I've developed very depressing/suicidal thoughts. And even the kids were constantly making fun of my depression. They made a f**king annoying habit for like a whole semester to keep asking me "are you okay?" just to f**k around with me. I couldn't stand it.

Wow...even recalling this stuff to write about it is making me feel really depressed. I know it was like 10 years ago but damn...

I think the worst blow was during a parent-teacher conference when my homeroom teacher comparing me to a friend of mine in the same class (me being lower academically of course) in front of my dad). Ouch!

I went to middle school in two different states, Wyo and Cali. School in Wyo was completly demoralizing for me. I was different and hated by my classmates and totally tormented by them. They called me Dog for most of the time I lived there. I was harrassed and beat up on a regular basis, only when I would gather the courage to stand up for myself or defend myself would any teacher or admin step in and then it was always my fault. I was eventually sent to a school therapist and after a couple of sessions she decided she needed to work with the whole class not just me, that lasted a few sessions before the parents stepped in and pitched a fit and it was back to being my fault again.

When we moved to California my life was better, even tho I was in a much bigger class, I didn't suffer at all. People were nicer to me and I wasn't treated badly. But the damage was done and I still had alot of difficulties in school that were hard to overcome.

I didn't have middle school That part of my timeline was a bit rough though, the age is a snobby, unaccepting one.